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    • From Frustration to Love

      From Frustration to Love, by Jana Stirling

      (Article originally published in The Llewellyn Journal.)

      I'm a computer programmer for an insurance company in New Jersey. It's not a flashy position, but I make a great salary, have good perks, and unlike many programmers, I don't have to work late or on weekends.

      At the age of 28, I'd say I'm doing pretty well. I own my own home (well, actually the bank owns it, but I'm paying the mortgage). I've traveled around the world with friends, I'm told I have a great personality and a wild sense of humor, and, even if it is immodest for me to say so, I look pretty good. I have an athletic figure that's still firm thanks to visits to the gym three times a week, and people tell me I look a bit like Winona Ryder.

      So I've got good friends, I've traveled the world, I make great money, and I look good. And sometimes I think I'm the most unhappy and most unlucky woman on Earth.

      The longest I've had any relationship last has been about four months. That includes my boyfriends in high school and college. That includes guys I've met at conferences and at the gym. Every one of them turned out to have something wrong with them. They started out as wonderful, intelligent men, but in a short time they changed. How could I be so unlucky as to pick such losers?

      I was unlucky.
      I was unhappy.
      I was alone.

      THE REALIZATION

      One night as I lay curled up in bed—alone, again—I started to think about my situation. I was a good person. My friends liked me. I had enough money of my own so I didn't have to be "high maintenance." Why was I ending up with losers time after time? And then I had a personal revelation that rocked my world. It was a simple question that I asked myself:

      What's wrong with me?

      I sat up, startled. I don't know why, but I started to think in terms of my car (it's my pride and joy, a Jeep Grand Cherokee). If it didn't work right no matter what brand or octane of fuel I put into it, should I blame the fuel? I don't think so. The fault was with the car. I made up my mind right then that rather than start looking for someone else and dealing with his problems, I needed to discover what my real issues were. Perhaps it was I who was, for some unknown reason, sabotaging relationships. I just didn't know where to look to find an answer.

      Two days later it was the weekend. I went to a bookstore to get some books on programming, and continued to walk around the store. On a table at the end of a row I saw a book entitled Astrology and Relationships by David Pond. On the back cover it says the book, "...addresses the complexities of real relationships by revealing the essential nature, needs, strengths, and challenges of every combination. Then it takes the unique step of offering exercises that will help you manifest the true potential that exists between each of the signs."

      As a scientifically-minded computer programmer, you might think that I would scoff at astrology. In fact, I pay no attention to the forecasts that appear in newspapers. I knew that real astrology involved far more than just the day you were born. But why would I believe it?

      I know that if I use a wrong line of code it could spoil a program I'm writing and require many hours of "debugging." I also know that something I write at the beginning of the program can effect something near the end of the program. Everything in a computer program interrelates with other parts of that program.

      I have a feeling that we may interrelate with the greater universe. For me that might just be a rationalization, but the important question for me is not how astrology works, but does it work? I had never really investigated astrology, but for some reason, I thought it was time. I needed help with my life and relationships, and if astrology helps, I'll use it!

      Just one problem. I needed a horoscope chart in order to use the book. Luckily, there is an offer for a free natal chart included in the book. They didn't even ask for postage (like many other "free" offers require). I got the book and sent off for the chart. I chose not to read the book until I got the chart. Every day, when I arrived home from work, I anxiously checked my mail for the chart. Finally, it arrived. I was ready for a change and I hoped that Astrology and Relationships would help me understand myself better so that I could finally find love.

      WHAT I DISCOVERED

      Have you ever looked at an astrology chart? If, like me, you don't know anything about astrology, they can seem fairly cryptic and daunting. But then I realized that is was all a code—and a simple code at that. The circle with a dot in it represented the Sun and the symbol that looked like the horns of a ram represented the sign Aries. My chart shows that at birth the Sun was in Aries. In fact, it was at 24 minutes, 48 seconds (whatever that means). But now that I could read the chart, I could use the book. I found out that I didn't even need to worry about the exact numbers, I just needed to know the locations of my planets. This was starting to get easier.

      One of the things I discovered is that professional astrologers might study every page of a thick book such as this, but people such as myself, a non-astrologer, needn't do so. Although the book appears huge to a non-astrologer such as myself, I could safely ignore most of it and simply look up the parts that apply to me. Suddenly, this enormous book came down to a smaller size that I could easily use.

      I made a list of the important items from my chart and the book. Here is what I wrote:

      1) Sun in Aries
      Qualities: I desire excitement, intensity, different experiences. I want to stay independent while caring about the needs of others.
      What to do: Cultivate listening skills.

      2) Moon in Taurus
      Qualities: I am genuine when acknowledging my needs. I am stable, but I have challenges with adapting.
      What to do: When faced with a situation where I have to adapt (and I resist change) I need to be aware of when it would be better to adapt than resist.

      3) Mercury in Aries
      Qualities: I'm bright, enthusiastic, and impulsive. I enjoy challenging conversation, but have a short attention span and speak on impulse.
      What to do: Learn to respond rather than react to the ideas of others. This, the author says, is "inspirational instead of irritating." (p.90)

      4) Venus in Gemini
      Qualities: I'm versatile, friendly, independent, flirtatious, and like open-minded relationships.
      What to do: Because I like new things, I can be seen as fickle or superficial. I need to develop empathy for the emotional needs of others.

      5) Mars in Gemini
      Qualities: I'm intellectual but passionate and can get bored with routine.
      What to do: I have to focus on self-discipline to avoid being distracted from commitments.

      6) Jupiter in Capricorn
      Qualities: I am focused on worldly success and relationships that fit in with that are more likely to work.
      What to do: Look for a person who demonstrates his beliefs in his life.

      7) Saturn in Gemini
      Qualities: I need to be cautious of being too dogmatic. I can be a great speaker but am annoyed by know-it-alls and gossips.
      What to do: Stay open-minded and communicative.

      8) Uranus in Libra
      Qualities: I support causes of equality, fairness, literacy, the arts.
      What to do: Support groups which are causes I believe in.

      9) Neptune in Sagittarius
      Qualities: I have spiritual interests from around the world but could become susceptible to blind faith.
      What to do: Avoid being dogmatic.

      10) Pluto in Libra
      Qualities: I like beauty. I like cooperation rather than competition.
      What to do: Avoid excessive intellectualism yet take a stand.

      I found a repeating message in all of this information. The book indicates that I am outgoing and can be direct and well liked, but I have to be careful about what I say and listen before I put my foot in my mouth. I decided to put this information to use.

      PUTTING IT INTO PRACTICE

      That night I had a date with a man I'll call "Tom," whom I met at the gym. I tried listening and not saying anything before responding. I have to say this: Tom is sharp. He noticed right away that I was struggling. He asked me what was wrong.

      I looked at him for a long time. Then I just out and told him that my relationships have not worked out well and I recently received some advice that I should listen to people and mull over what they say rather than just react without thinking. His face broke into a big smile. "Sounds like you got some good advice," he said. "In all honesty, I knew that you could have that challenge before I asked you out."

      "How...?"

      "Well, if you promise you won't laugh at me..." I nodded. "Remember when we first met at the gym? I asked for your birth date. I thought you were attractive and intelligent, but I wanted to see what the stars indicated I would need to do in order to get along with you."

      "You checked us out with astrology?" He nodded. I started to laugh. "Hey! You said you wouldn't laugh." I immediately felt I could totally open up to him and told him how I had been lonely and tried to discover what I was doing wrong. I also told him about my use of Astrology and Relationships. Now it was his turn to look atme.

      "I'll make you a deal," he said. "I promise I won't run away or attack you as you work on your listening skills if you promise to keep working on them." We toasted to our new alliance.

      Over the next few weeks, Tom helped me a great deal. At first, making changes in the way I approached people was difficult. But what I started to do was listen without saying anything, waiting a few moments, and only then responding. That little waiting period let me avoid making social faux pas. It's getting easier and easier to do.

      I've continued to see Tom. He's been teaching me some more about astrology, which I find to be challenging, informative, and fun. He's also revealed that he has problems dealing with pride. There's nothing wrong with being proud of what you do, but he can become so focused that at times he feels he has to outdo everybody at everything. He can become overly competitive, filled with blind ambition, and defensive when challenged. That, I learned, is his Sun in Leo. I told him I would help him with this.

      So we've been helping each other. Actually, we've been doing a lot more than helping each other. We seem to have fun in everything we do together. If he says something I don't agree with, and if I say, "That's stupid," he gives me what we call, the look. Then we laugh and I apologize and tell him, "What I meant to say is that I disagree because of this or that." But I seem to be messing up less and less and I like Tom more and more.

      We've been together for almost six months, now. Every day seems to get better and better. Because of the information I discovered about myself in Astrology and Relationships and my decision to act on the advice in the book, I am now in the longest relationship I have ever had.And I love it.

      Tom has been teasing me by not revealing all of his birth data. Finally, he gave me a copy of his horoscope chart a few weeks ago. I'm going through Astrology & Relationships so I can better understand him and how I can help meet his needs.

      MY ADVICE

      I never thought I'd be saying this, but if you are looking for ways to improve relationships, I would like to suggest that you investigate astrology. I don't know how it works or why it works, but I do know that it identified my problems and the author of Astrology and Relationships gave me advice on what to do. It worked for me and it may work for you.

      And for the first time in a long time I am really happy.

      Article originally published in The Llewellyn Journal. Copyright Llewellyn Worldwide, 2001. All rights reserved.

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    • Double Vision: How Do I know if a Psychic is for Real?

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      How do I know if a psychic has true abilities, and can provide a fairly accurate reading? - Christine

      Dreamchaser:

      I am so glad you asked this question. I am sure MANY people wonder this, but never get a chance to ask about it. There are a couple of things that mark a reading as legitimate right off the bat.

      The first thing is you knowing exactly what you are getting. You should know who your reading is with and how long it will last. You also need to know the exact cost. Any time a "reader" says something like, "You have a bad spell on you. For an extra (fill in the blank with a large amount of money), I can remove it for you," or "If you give me (fill in the blank with another large sum) I can cast a love spell to guarantee his/ her return," you should RUN away quickly.

      That is a sure sign of a scam. While some reputable psychics may offer to help you with love spells, they will tell you exactly what you're getting, and for how much. If you're asked for a large amount on top of what you already expect to pay in the middle of a reading, consider it a red flag.

      Often I hear clients say things like, "You're the psychic; you tell me why I am here." A doctor can tell you what is wrong with you, but when you first walk in, you have to tell the doctor what your symptoms are. If a psychic asks you to ask specific questions, like I do, it's because I want to get to the root of your issues quickly and save you some money.

      I can do a general reading and hit on lots of areas, but if you are coming to me for a reading, you have a reason to be there, so let's go right to that reason, get it fixed and get you out and on to better experiences. That is ANOTHER sign by the way: readers who charge by the minute and who lapse into long silences or milk the conversation out are probably just trying to get more of your money.

      The most important thing is how your gut feels. Does your gut kick and scream against what the person is saying to you, or does it agree, even if you don't like what you hear? If you link up with a good reader, your intuition will know it, and you will feel a connection. If you do not have a good connection, your energy will also know THAT. We always, under ALL circumstances, need to pay attention to our guts.

      If you ask Spirit for guidance, you will be led to the right person for you. You will find the reader you are meant to have a reading with. Please remember that not every psychic, no matter how gifted, can read for every person. Even if someone recommends a psychic as INCREDIBLE, you may not have the same experience, so ask Spirit to guide you to the perfect reader for you.

      I wish you clear and unmistakably accurate readings.

      *****

      Astrea:

      When I was fourteen, my friends and I went to Mrs. Wheeler to have our fortunes told. Mrs. Wheeler took my five dollars ("to put in my Bible so I can pray for you") and told me that the ring I wore was lucky, and that someday I would marry a man with blonde hair and blue eyes. I'm still wearing the ring, and I DID marry a man with blonde hair and blue eyes - for a while. We chose Mrs. Wheeler because she was the only "psychic" around at the time.

      There are a lot more storefront psychics you can see in person now, because the laws against fortune telling have been relaxed in lots of places. You can even ask friends for recommendations. Most New Age Bookstores have good readers working several hours a week.

      Check to see how long the reader has been reading in that location, and if you want an "in person" reading, try someone out for a "sample" reading before you get more involved. Tell the reader before you sit down that you're looking for someone you feel "connected to" for your reading. A good reader will know within a few minutes if SHE has that connection too, and HONEST readers will tell you if they can't get anything for you. I do that all the time.

      Don't ask for a "general" reading. Go prepared with specific questions, and if the first two or three answers seem off to you, thank the reader and try someone else. I don't do "general" readings at all, because I think they're a waste of my time and the client's money.

      If you're shopping on the Internet, you should be able to tell by the site if the readers there are any good. A site that has been in business on the Internet for five years or more must have good readers, and they will have had plenty of practice reading for people this way.

      If a reader EVER tells you that you are "cursed," leave immediately. The NEXT thing he or she is going to say is that it will cost A LOT OF MONEY to get that "curse" lifted! If a reader offers you a "spell" to "fix" something (usually it's to "make someone love you"), run the other way. Spells are good for lots of things, but changing someone's free will isn't one of them.

      Any time you feel the LEAST bit uncomfortable with what the reader is saying or doing, it's time to BOOGIE! Also, if a reader EVER asks for large sums of money to do something for you, please do yourself, others, and sincere psychics the favor of reporting this scam artist to the proper authorities.

      Finally, you get what you pay for TO A DEGREE, but a $100 reading can be just as good as a $1000 reading, especially if you've done your homework and established a strong connection.

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