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Using the Tarot to Understand Your Self and Your Divinity, by Sasha Graham

(Article originally published in The Llewellyn Journal.)

You are the universe. You are divine. You are pure consciousness. Everything you see, notice, observe, listen to, eat, laugh at, make fun of, enjoy and dislike, resist and surrender to is the universe seeing itself, understanding itself, and recognizing itself. What is true for you is true for the universe. What is true for the universe is true for you. As above, so below. This is why when you give love, you receive love.

You, like the Fool tarot card, are on a journey, quest, adventure. The journey of who you are, like a sacred circle, will lead you back yourself. The World circles back to the Fool card and begins the journey again. Your journey begins with you. It ends with you. You may travel to the edges of your backyard or to the far flung reaches of the world. It is the internal journey that matters. Everything else? Shadows and dust. The exterior world is energy changing form, a mere illusion. Your interior life, your inner roads, bear the mark of eternity.

Each day as you wake, the mystery of who you are unfolds a bit further. You move forward, backwards, or sideways on your respective path, closer to or further from your goals. You speed along on cruise control sometimes. Other times, you find yourself lost in thorny thickets or gasping for air in quicksand. We all instigate cause and effect with our actions and deeds. We fill the world with our energy. We spend it wisely on things we love, reinvesting energy in ourselves or give it away to other people and things. Each day of our life, we step closer to death. August's rich harvest and golden light surrenders into the deepening shadows of September's equinox. It is worth surrendering to. It isn't easy, but its beautiful. It is why we are here. Practice the art of surrender. If you let Summer's passage into Fall be your teacher, you become more of who you are outside of linear time.

A map is essential for any journey. These days, we use handy cell phone maps fitting snugly into the palm of our traveling hands. If you were around in the 1970s you'll remember giant AAA travel maps found under vinyl seats and in the dusty glove compartments of our parents' car. These maps became reading fodder during infernal road trips after the Mad Libs and fast food fries gave out. Ancient peoples crafted scroll maps by hand. Men and women looked to the firmament before paper's invention. Constellations in a crystal clear, pollution-free night sky were used as a guide, plot, and plan.

Maps show us landscapes; they reveal the lay of the land so we can orient ourselves. Maps let us know where to find things like gas stations, convenience stores, and our friend's house. Yet, the most most exciting maps, the most rarified, desired, and lusted for maps, maps that people have shed blood and lost their lives over, are treasure maps. If you are looking for the treasure map of your soul, look no further than a deck of Tarot cards for sale at your local bookshop.

Tarot has been described as many things; an oracle, game, book, meditation and contemplative device, and more. Tarot is the ideal map because it presents you, the inner and outer life, in a sensible, precise, easy to read manner. It speaks with equal equity of the practical and the mysterious, the visible and invisible. The tarot, like you, is the microcosm and macrocosm. Tarot offers possibility while reflecting precisely where you are on your journey. Tarot reflects infinite possibility because it communicates through symbol. Each of us fill symbols and cards with personal meaning, the way we read between the lines of poetry or prose. Poetry speaks through economy of words and silence. Silence, like dark matter or garden compost, contains all possibility. Tarot's symbols communicate like poetry because symbolic meaning is felt. Visuals are ingested and move inside of us to take residence. They are ripe with wide open space. You illuminate the space with personal meaning.

My latest book, Llewellyn's Complete Book of the Rider-Waite-Smith Tarot, offers a keen examination of the occult mapping of tarot. I put aside personal associations with the cards aside and went straight to Arthur Waite, the author and source of the RWS deck, to craft a book on the world's most famous deck. I deconstructed his books and articles relating to the cards to understand his ultimate goal when creating the deck in 1909. Turns out, Waite was using the tarot as a mapping tool to express the nature of divinity.

The nature of divinity was the last thing I was looking for when buying my first deck of tarot cards at age twelve.  Delicious, mysterious Halloween was all I could sense inside the cards. Black and orange jelly beans, bobbing for apples, witches with pointy hats and sugary orange pumpkins carved into silly and macabre faces. I wouldn't have understood the phrase "nature of divinity" as a pre-teen. I did, however, hop off my bike often to lie back on a field. I enjoyed feeling myself tiny against an expansive summer sky or seeing luminous fall foliage flush through valleys blazing with color. It was a signature of things to come.

Nature is the great equalizer of humanity. We all gaze at the same moon. No matter how we come to understand our existence, regardless of dogma, religion, system or rejection of systems used to explain our souls, life and the after-life, nature is the equalizer. The ocean remains the ocean. A mountain is a mountain. A flower is a flower. Nature contains the first archetypes. Nature predates human personality. This is why myth and legend are elemental and grounded in mountains, sky, and ocean. Earth, air, fire, and water are reflected in tarot as Pentacles, Swords, Wands, and Cups. These are the symbolic elements we fill to the brim with personal meaning.

The material world (Pentacles) is the place where we all meet each other while navigating the folds of our interior life. The earth contains everything you can touch, taste, see, feel, and smell. Pentacles are your soft body, your tasty dinner, your little black dress, the money you stuff in your wallet, your bedroom, your garden, etc. Everything else in the tarot and in our life is invisible. We experience and feel the passion of Wands when we desire a person or thing. We see Wands expressed in others through facial expressions and actions yet we are unable to hold passion in our hands. We experience the intellectuality of Swords, articulate ourselves through language, make calculations and see others doing the same yet we cannot taste or smell a thought itself. The emotional life of Cups often influences our every action. Our emotions can feel wonderful or horrifying yet you can’t literally hold love, fear, excitement, trepidation in your hands.

Major Arcana archetypes are psychological constructs and ideas that are not available in solid form. We cycle through the archetypes and court card personalities on a daily basis. Court cards and archetypes reflect all of the different personalities living inside of you. You are a tarot Queen when in an empathetic state of mind and nurturing others. You are the Empress when at the height of your creative ability and being brilliant with your talents. You are the Emperor when you make routines and rules for yourself and stick to them. You are a Page when you are in a childlike and curious mood. We cycle through personalities, moods, and archetypes differently each day and on a moment to moment basis. Yet it is all invisible and ephemeral. The experience of our life occurs inside of us.

Your response to spirituality, the supernatural, creativity, etc., is interior and highly personal. No two people experience mystery in the same way. C.S Lewis said, "Are not all lifelong friendships born at the moment when at last you meet another human being who has some inkling (but faint and uncertain even at best) of that something which you were born desiring, and which, beneath the flux of other desires and in all the momentary silences between the louder passions, night and day, year by year, from childhood to old age, you are looking for, watching for and listening for?"

Arthur Waite offers us a map of how divinity (the universal life force, the godhead, a flower, whatever name you'd like to give it) unfolds in the material world via the tarot by connecting it with the Tree of Life. Once divinity moves down through the Tree and expresses itself in the material world, like a sunflower blooming in your garden, you are free to retrace these steps in reverse. You can moves back up the Tree, retracing the path of divinity. You reach the summit to look it squarely in the eye. Divinity sees you seeing it. Divinity wants you to recognize it as much as your soul wants to be seen and understood.

Have you ever fallen in love with a person or animal and felt them loving you back? It is the soul recognition in another. It usually happens when you least expected it, although you always desired it. Divinity's been on Tinder looking for you all along. This is why love, especially new love, fills us with endorphin-like drug feelings. It is a hint, a gasp of the ecstatic love which created you. Once you truly "see" each other and recognize one another, like a lover's kiss, a Big Bang explodes.

Your Big Bang expresses itself though synchronicities and evolution in the material world. Uncanny synchronicity appears to let us know we chose well. We are right where we should be on our path, journey, adventure. You change on a cellular level. The material world changes with you. You find yourself responding to old habits and behaviors in a different way. Patterns change. Old challenges are with met with sudden clarity and solutions. You become more of who you are. The mystery of who you are unfolds.

The seeds of everything you are, everything you need, is right there. Just as the Magician has Cups, Wands, Swords and Pentacles on his table, your psyche, spirit, passions, and body is a self-sustaining kit with everything you need. I hope you tend to the garden of your soul. I hope you make use of the gifts enfolded and entrusted deep inside of you. May your gifts bring you joy. You make the world a more beautiful place by sharing them. I hope you stay true to your path. Hope you are willing to brave dark woods and creepy shadows when the going gets tough. Persevere through to claim the glittering treasure beyond. May you cycle through the tarot a million times over and find your deepest authenticity in every draw. All the universe is planted inside of you.

It's harvest time.

Article originally published in The Llewellyn Journal. Copyright Llewellyn Worldwide, 2018. All rights reserved.

I understand that we are all psychic, and that some people choose to embrace it and others do not. I have this friend I have been close to for many years, and she fully believes that we're all psychic, but says that she herself doesn't like it. She says that she likes to still her head, and that she chooses to do whatever it takes to quiet her inner voice. I've met many people, in fact, who seem to be consciously choosing to turn off their psychic ability or quiet their intuition. I believe that intuitive insights come to us from a higher place. If this is true, then aren't we sort of turning God off by turning off that inner voice? Why are some people afraid to hear their inner voice? Is it harmful to turn it off?
K.

Susyn:

It's true that some people are afraid to listen to their inner voice. Fear and a desire to control things are often the reasons for people shutting out Spirit and their inner knowing. We are all psychic and intuitive, but some people just don't feel they can handle this type of energy, so they turn it off.

We live in a society of people that like to feel they are in control. Many of them will have nothing to do with the supernatural. They use what's tangible as their rule of thumb: if it can't be seen or proven by science, they choose to ignore it. That may seem puzzling to those of us who have experienced the great wonder of living a spiritual life and developing our psychic abilities. Given that we all have free will, however, they have the same right as we do to decide what to believe in and what to be skeptical about.

Some people like to think that they are in charge of what happens in their lives, so relying on an invisible power to direct them seems foreign or even ridiculous to them. They tend to take the credit when things go their way, and blame everyone else when trouble visits them. Living a spiritual life may not always empower us to avoid trouble, but without a higher perspective, it is very difficult to learn the lessons behind our experiences.

I agree that this is a difficult way to live, but people make choices every day that work against them. They eat poorly, ignore their bodies, and pull out their credit cards when they don't have enough money. They are on a more-more-more roller coaster, just trying to fill an aching void within themselves with the wrong stuff. The sad thing is that the thirst they are trying to quench can only be truly satiated with one thing: Spirit.

It may be that negative religious or unsettling personal experiences caused these people to choose to cut off their one true source of joy and enlightenment. In doing so, they are limiting themselves severely and don't even realize it. We can't spend all our time trying to change their minds, but we can, through example, show them a better way to live.

As you continue to develop your intuitive skills, people around you will see a new light emanating from you. Your efforts will empower you to succeed in all sorts of ways, and you'll become an endless source of hope, comfort and inspiration for others. Perhaps the people you come in contact with will finally ask you what your secret is, and you can tell them, I just allow my intuitive gifts to freely flow through me!

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Oceania:

Turning off our inner voice can be harmful because in doing so, we may be cutting off sources of information that could be helpful to us. It's important to find wise balance when it comes to considering new information. Some people are impulsive and quick to shift positions; some of those may even have a reputation for being short-term fanatics. Others are fearful to open up to new input, and may never change their minds about much of anything.

We could say that intuitive insights come from a higher place, but another way of putting it is that they come from a larger place that includes anything beyond our current belief system and what logic may dictate. Those of us raised in Western culture are taught to put great value on reason, linear thinking and conscious awareness, and are encouraged to dismiss irrational feelings, dreams, and intuitions.

Your friend's inner voice may well be nudging her to examine something important that she doesn't want to face, so she's disregarding it for now. Are we turning off God when we turn off our inner voices? I think so, regardless of how we define God. If we think of God as All That Is or the Whole of which we're a part, our inner voice could be considered the link between our conscious minds and that larger Whole.

One definition of God I'm fond of is Good Orderly Direction. In this sense, God is the guiding principles by which we live our lives, so when we turn off that inner voice, we may also disregard those principles. God can also refer to Spirit - the essence of Being, Life or Love - so turning off our inner voice would mean we're disconnecting from our very essence.

Meditation is one way to reconnect with God and inner wisdom, because in that relaxed and quiet state of no-mind, we can sense more. I love Eckhart Tolle's metaphor of a lake for the whole of our minds. When we're at the surface of the lake and involved in the drama of our lives, we may experience turbulence. Waves on the surface of the lake may be whipped up and feel distracting or even dangerous, but if we sink down to the bottom of the lake, all is still and well, and we can reconnect with deeper wisdom and awareness.

The thing that jumps out at me most in your letter is that you are questioning your own beliefs just because others disagree with you. While it is always prudent to consider the beliefs of others and review our own, in this case, I think you are wise to stand by your inner voice and trust your inner knowing.

Astrea:

Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.

Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!

While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!

I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!

As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.

I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.

You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!

Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.

A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.

You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.