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October 25 through October 31, 2021

Happy Samhain and Halloween! Moving through the last week of October to the culmination of a sacred holiday to the Celts should run quite smoothly. A Gemini Moon on Monday, followed by Tuesday and Wednesday's Cancer Moon, will put us in the mood to embrace the spiritual tones of the season. We often wear different masks for the different people in our lives (these days, figuratively AND literally) and this is a great time to examine why we do this and how it is working. There will be an energy in the air to express ourselves more authentically or to show more of our true natures to the world, especially as the Moon travels through Leo on Thursday and Friday. There's a tendency to overthink things as the Moon moves through Virgo on Saturday and Sunday; try to avoid those mental gymnastics and be sure to watch for critical thinking or high idealism, as these two "head" activities can only get you into hot water! Mars will move into Scorpio on Saturday, where it will spend the next two months shifting our actions and movements in subtle spiritual ways. Though our journey may not make sense or could change direction at a moment's notice before the end of the year, we can trust that spirit is in charge now and directing the traffic!

5 Ways to Reset Your Life with Tarot, by Melissa Cynova

(Article originally published in The Llewellyn Journal.)

"I've only known for ten years that 'No.' is a complete sentence."—Jane Fonda

If you consider the Self as a skeleton, and all of the wants, needs, and that which you hold dear to be the skin on your bones and the muscles and sinew that helps us move, you start to have a picture of what it is to be a human. You begin with this plain and simple person. You are happy. You are a combination of your genetics, your soul, and your environment. It's pretty idyllic for a bit, as you start turning into yourself. You read books, you listen to music, you turn like sunflowers to those things that light you up. In short, you build yourself.

The problem comes when other people start flinging things at your developing self and screw it all up.

These words usually (not earlier, if we're lucky?) start hitting us at about the time we find our anger and more complex emotions. They label us as wrong, and the image of "right" is handed to us. These labels stick in us like thorns. They cover up the skin that we're building and make us wish to be not-us. We wish to be different, even when we're still unfinished. We change course to please others, and that which pleases us gets left in the background.

The thorns have lots of different names. Ugly. Stupid. Fat. Weird. Bossy. Difficult. Different.

All of these names mean the same thing: You are not enough. You are not smart enough. Pretty enough. White enough. Feminine enough. Right enough. You need to change the everything about yourself so that you match up to these arbitrary standards that move around when you're not looking.

It took me approximately thirty-six years to pull most of the thorns that I'd accumulated over the years out of my skin. At 44, I've only just stopped bleeding.

I wrote a book about pulling out the thorns. Tarot Elements: Five Readings to Reset Your Life breaks down our complex selves and histories into five distinct sections and readings. The Earth reading talks about our Home. The Air reading, our Mind. Fire is our Body, Water our Heart, and Spirit our Soul. I thought it would be easier to reset your entire life if you take one part at a time, you know?

There are five tarot readings in the book that help you take yourself apart, remove the things that make you bleed, and move forward from right here and now.

It's not easy to look at your life so closely. To forgive the you from the past or to change habits. It's not easy to decide that this life right here is not the one you want. In order to find the correct path, you have to turn around and go back a bit. To forgive and bless Yester-You so that you can truly see that you tried. That you really truly tried your best, and that the opinions of others Are. Not. True. Sometimes you need to take a few steps back to get a good view of what's really going on in your life. Is it good, or is it comfortable? Are you happy, or just less annoyed than usual?

For example, there is a difference between a house and a home. A house is a place where you live. A home is a place that lives with you for the rest of your life. If someone asks you where home is, do you think about your parents' house? Your grandparents'? The apartment you had after college? If your answer is anywhere but the home in which you now live, the Earth reading is for you. This reading helps you look at your life objectively and see what might have become furniture for you. Have you gone through your storage area lately? How about under the bed? Do you really need all of those sheets? What if you donated them to an animal rescue place? You'd have more room and make some animals happy. These are the benefits to squinting at your life and getting a bigger picture of it.

The Air Reading asks you how bored you are, really. Do you like your job? Do you feel like you belong? Like you're challenged? Do you feel excited about doing the work and being a part of that environment? In my experience, being bored causes people to get into trouble, and being dismissed causes people to spiral into anger and depression. I never suspected that my job was the problem until I was in my forties. I would always blame myself for the problem and try to make it work. When I couldn't and I left (or was asked to leave) I'd go to a job that suited me a little better and damn—what a difference.

The Fire reading asks you to look at your body in the same specific and calculating way that you will look at your heart and soul. What is sticking to you that doesn't belong to you? Which habits and behavior patterns are getting in your way? Can you meet yourself exactly where you are and move home from here? This is not a beauty magazine reading to tell you how to get thinner thighs in thirty days. Your thighs are just fine the way they are. This is about becoming okay with where you are today, forgiving and thanking yourself in the past, and making a plan for the future. There is no shame or blame here. There is only walking away confident.

Can you pull those thorns out? It's hard. After a while, they become like layer of armor that protects us from the world and all of the bad things in it that might be pointed at us. Carrying these insecurities and anxieties with us keeps us from trying too hard, or for trusting too easily. They work really, really well—until you notice something.

The thing about armor is that yes, it keeps everything away from you. But it also keeps everything away from you. If your thorny armor is keeping you from living your most authentic life, it's not worth it anymore and it's time. Time to bleed a little and heal a lot.

Then it's time to move on, unburdened.

Article originally published in The Llewellyn Journal. Copyright Llewellyn Worldwide, 2019. All rights reserved.

During the wee hours of this morning, I heard incessant doorbell ringing. My eyes flew open and my heart was racing. Naturally, when you hear a doorbell ringing during the middle of the night, you think it must be bad news. I shook it off and calmed down. I went back to sleep and another series of incessant doorbell ringing ensued. I didn't look at the time, but I hopped out of bed like I had seen the Holy Ghost. I looked out my front door for the motion detector lights, which were not on. I knew it was the front door because it has a very distinct ring that sets it apart from the one under the garage. I thought the doorbell ringing was symbolic because my great-grandmother was buried close to this time last year. However, I'm leaning toward attributing it to my girlfriend. I read a Hindu interpretation of this sort of dream that says it is indicative of my desire to touch my girlfriend and be with her physically. It also said that she was probably the person ringing the doorbell and that I'm supposed to go to her. Ironically, she said something similar to that a few weeks ago - that if I want to be with her, I need to come to her and show her. Is it possible that the incessant doorbell ringing was my wake-up call to get it together and step up to the plate in my relationship? This has really scared me because it woke me out of a deep sleep. To be honest, I'm scared to go back to sleep. I will probably be consulting a sleep specialist next.

Brittany

Susyn:

There are many possibilities that may account for your doorbell ringing in the middle of the night. The most important aspect of what happened is that you are now more alert and taking note of some of the emotional and spiritual issues in your life that need to be addressed.

When a person experiences something this profound, it is definitely a wake-up call that something is out of order in their lives. You have done well to consider all the possibilities that could be connected with this experience.

I have had a few clients who had similar experiences. In one case in particular, the previous owner of the house my client lived in had passed away.

The story goes that he used to come home late at night from the bar to find his wife had locked him out. He would ring the doorbell incessantly until she let him in. He died before his wife did, and she remained in the house until her own passing. The door bell ringing in the middle of the night turned out to be a residual haunting. In residual hauntings, a scene plays out over and over, much like rewinding and replaying a section of a DVD.

If you continue to experience this sort of thing, from the safety of your bedroom, ask the entity responsible to leave. Using phrases such as, The person you are looking for is not here or No one is home should do the trick.

However, my sense is that you will not experience this again because it achieved its purpose: it got you to think about your relationship. You might note that if you and your girlfriend were together, she may have been able to confirm whether the doorbell was actually ringing, and you would not have had to go through this unsettling experience alone.

Researching the Hindu meaning of your experience has affirmed your suspicion that this was related to your girlfriend. In fact, she may have unconsciously astral projected to your house in her dreams because she was tired of waiting for you to reach out to her.

If you still feel confused or hesitant about this relationship, don't worry: If Spirit is ready to move the two of you closer, you will continue to experience signs that affirm that. You probably won't be awakened by another session of midnight doorbell ringing, however, for it seems you got the message the first time, and are prepared to take action.

*****

Mata:

I think the Hindu dream interpretation led you far astray. Of course, you are the ultimate authority on your own dreams, so if this feels spot on to you, you must trust that feeling. The problem is that I don't think this was actually a dream, so trying to interpret it as such is a fool's errand.

The phantom doorbell is an astral experience. It occurs when your mind is in harmony with the astral plane: when you are on the cusp between being awake and asleep.

It is not a physical phenomenon. A number of people who were tired of being awakened in this way have disconnected their doorbells only to find the experience continues. Further, the sound of the phantom doorbell (or phone or alarm) is often different from the sound the physical apparatus makes.

In my experience, hearing a phantom doorbell is almost always a result of a loved one in spirit trying to get our attention. Most people only begin to experience this after the passing of a significant loved one. Further, many are awakened to the presence of that loved one; they may not directly see or perceive the spirit with their physical senses, but they know that they are there.

Most of the time, this is just the loved one stopping by, much as they might have done when they were living. Sometimes, however, they are trying to get our attention for a specific reason. For example, if you have overslept and need to get up, you may be awakened by the sound of a phantom doorbell, alarm or phone ringing. I have also heard a number of stories from people who heard a phantom ring or knock at the door who awakened to discover some sort of emergency, such as the house being on fire.

Basically, this is a way for spirits to get our attention. I recall hearing a story about a man who was sometimes startled by the presence of his dead brother. One day he jokingly told him to ring the doorbell the next time he came around, and guess what? That is when the phantom doorbell phenomenon began at his house.

Though it often occurs out of the blue, there is a definite trend for this sort of thing to happen on significant dates such as the anniversary of a death or your own birthday. If you research this, you'll read many stories from people who describe how a loved one gave them a sign like this at a time that held clues regarding the identity of the sender.

Astrea:

Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.

Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!

While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!

I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!

As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.

I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.

You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!

Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.

A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.

You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.