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An Excerpt from Let Us Be Greater by Michelle Madrid

As an international adoptee and someone who has worked with adopted adults and youth as a life coach, I’ve identified eight adoptee pain points, places of hurt that adoptees need to heal. These pain points can cause challenges in the adoptee’s life, keeping them from a place of peace and wholeness within. Setting the course to compassionately and soulfully heal and reframe these eight primary sources of pain — transforming points of pain into points of light. The adoptee pain points are:

The pain of feeling unwelcome in the world

The pain of broken bonds and a deep sense of loss

The pain of being denied access to truth

The pain of familial rejection and of words that harm

The pain of distrust

The pain of banished biology

The pain of pleasing others versus pleasing the self

The pain of lack of transparency and acceptance

Adoptees may feel out of control and at the mercy of one, several, or all of these pain points. Our work here, together, is to transform this pain and to empower our lives as adoptees.

The motivation to transform can be found in this question:

What if this is as good as it gets?

Is this what you’re asking yourself as an adoptee about the pain you’re carrying? Do you believe that the pain will never get any better? I learned, through an exercise called the Dickens Process, to sink into a painful limiting belief and imagine what it would feel like if I was still living with it one year, three years, five years, or ten years down the road. The Dickens Process is an NLP (neurolinguistic programming) technique that guides you to use your conscious mind in identifying the consequences of a limiting belief and in deciding whether you want to continue with that belief. The essence of this exercise is based on the character Scrooge from Charles Dickens’s A Christmas Carol. Scrooge is famously shown his past, his present, and what his future will look like if he doesn’t change his ways. The Dickens Process has you identify a limiting belief and then look at it in depth through the lens of three questions:

What did this limiting belief cost you and your loved ones in the past? What have you lost because of this belief? See it. Hear it. Feel it.
What is this limiting belief costing you and those you care about in the present? See it. Hear it. Feel it.
What will this limiting belief cost you and the people you care about one year, three years, five years, or ten years down the road? See it. Hear it. Feel it.

Once you’ve dwelled on the pain of this limiting belief and experienced what it feels like to hold on to it, you will be motivated to create a new limitless belief that inspires and empowers you. Here’s my question for you:

What limiting belief is holding you back today? What if the pain you feel right now, because of this belief, is exactly how you’ll feel one year, three years, five years, or ten years down the road? Maybe you’re telling yourself, as I once did, that you’re just one of those people meant to live a life that’s smaller than the dreams you hold inside. Maybe you believe that staying quiet and concealed, as an adoptee, is how you’ll stay safe from rejection. Maybe you’re living on someone else’s terms. Are you? Are you living someone else’s narrative for your life? Are you falling in line but secretly falling apart inside? I don’t want you to feel this way — not for one more second. What would it be like for you to leave your limiting beliefs behind, once and for all, and move forward with new and limitless ones? Take time to consider the questions of the Dickens Process. It’s a game changer. It works! We’ll revisit this process in chapter 1 during a reflection exercise.

My adoptive mother once told me that I could start finding out more about my first family and my ethnicity once she was no longer around. This was a damaging comment, and it came from my own mother. The comment was based in fear, only I didn’t know that at the time. Mom was fearful of losing me, and I was petrified of being rejected by her. Neither one of us was operating from a space of unconditional love.

And so I did what my mother asked. Like a good adopted girl, I sat inside the waiting room of my own life. The only thing that grew during that time were the pain points. Like thick vines, they entangled me in fear. I felt trapped and lost. Maybe you do, too.

We’re not here, as adoptees, to live someone else’s life. We’re here to live our own lives, our big and beautiful lives! We’re here to be who we are and who we’re destined to become. We’re here to do that from the purest place of authenticity and essence.
My desire to get to the truth of me and to reignite the light within me has taken me on a transformational journey of self-discovery, self-compassion, and self-love. That journey began when I picked up a book by Louise Hay in graduate school called You Can Heal Your Life. The title didn’t say that you can heal your life — unless you’re adopted. No, it offered me the assurance that I really could heal my life, even as an adoptee. Hay’s book awakened me to a place of pure love, empowerment, and self-acceptance. I wanted to get to that place in my own way and through my own experiences. I want to help you get there, too.

My potential once seemed so limited. Today I view my potential as vast and without boundaries. I used to perceive adoption as my weakness, but now I see it as a source of my strength. I’ve traveled deep within in order to transform my life. I’ve learned to shift limiting beliefs into limitless truth. I’ll be asking you to do the same as we, adoptee to adoptee, move through the pages of this book.

You see, the pain you may be struggling with right now isn’t as good as it gets. It’s not all there is! There’s so much more awaiting you beyond the pain. Do you have the power to heal your life? Yes, I believe with all that I am that you do.

Michelle Madrid is the author of Let Us Be Greater: A Gentle, Guided Path to Healing for Adoptees and host of the Electricity of You Podcast. She is an international adoptee, former foster child in the UK, and an adoptee empowerment life coach who has been recognized as an Angels in Adoption® Honoree by the Congressional Coalition on Adoption Institute (CCAI) and inducted into the New Mexico Women’s Hall of Fame for her work in adoption. She lives in Los Angeles and you can visit her online at http://TheMichelleMadrid.com.

Excerpted from the book Let Us Be Greater: A Gentle, Guided Path to Healing for Adoptees ©2023 by Michelle Madrid. Printed with permission from New World Library — www.newworldlibrary.com

My mom told me that two weeks prior to my birth, she had a dream in which she was sitting by the sea when all of a sudden the sea parted, and right in the middle of the sea walking towards her was a beautiful woman in white, carrying a tiny baby girl. She said the woman floated towards her, looked at her and smiled, and gave the baby to her. In this dream she was pregnant, so she was wondering why the woman gave her the child. The woman turned back and went back into the sea, and the sea came together again. Two weeks later, she gave birth to the same child - me! As a child, I was haunted by dreams in which I was swimming with mermaids and fishes. I had a whole series of them. Then I woke up one day and needed to urinate, but I couldn't because in place of my two legs was a fish tail. I went back to sleep and when I woke up again, it was gone! There are so many things I can't explain. I am considered to be a highly gifted young woman, and I still do odd things in my sleep. WHO AM I? How do I make good use of the powers I know I possess? I see dead friends in my sleep and we talk, and the whole time I know that they are on the other side. I'm really wondering if there is something different about me related to these mermaid dreams. What do you think?

- Nola

Dreamchaser:

I believe your mother had a prophetic dream of what you were going to look like. I also see that your mother considers you a gift from the Universe. You didn't tell us your birth date, but are you by any chance a water sign?

It's quite common for a woman to dream of the child she is carrying. When we are pregnant, we're forming a psychic bond with the child in our bellies. I've heard many stories of women who "saw" their children in dreams or visions.

You've had very active dreams your entire life, and you do a lot of your soul work while you're sleeping. As I have stated over and over here, when we sleep, our souls leave our bodies and go to where they most need to go to clean up from today and prepare for tomorrow. Some people (like you) remember their dreams vividly, while others (like me) rarely remember a dream. We both are doing the same amount of soul work in our sleep - you just happen to remember your soul work more easily than I do.

Water and things IN water have always signified emotions. When we dream of water and the things that water holds, we are working through emotional issues. As a child, you were quite emotional. You felt out of place, and you had a lot of emotional issues to deal with as a result of not fitting in like the other kids. You dealt with lots of those issues while you were sleeping.

When you dreamed of being in the water, it was an environment that other people could not enter, for they were human. YOU fit in there and you felt like you belonged with the other fish and mer-people. It was your mind's way of dealing with not being accepted into the society you had to live in every day.

I have always heard that when we need to urinate, we often dream of water. I am not in any way trying to minimize your dreams, but you mentioned yourself that you would wake up having to go to the bathroom.

As you've grown, you've started to associate with spirits on the Otherside that you know (and also many you do not know) when you sleep. Again, you are doing most of your soul work and psychic work while you sleep.

You have to accept the fact that you are psychic, and that you are never going to fit into "normal" society. Stop trying to do so. Once you do stop trying and accept that you are different in a wonderful way, you will see this work coming into your physical world, and not so much in your dream world. If we suppress what we are, it WILL manifest in some way. Your way is to dream it.

I wish you acceptance of your special nature!

*****

Astrea:

What an interesting story! You mother was visited by a Sea Goddess who wanted you to have what she never experienced: a human life! You were given to your mom because SHE has a special connection to the sea too. You were probably mother and daughter in a mermaid incarnation. Your fishtail dream was a "memory" of that incarnation, and also a MESSAGE from that Sea Goddess that you need to get started on your mission in life.

Why would the Sea Goddess give up her own daughter to a human existence, when humans have to suffer, grow old and die? If you explore mermaid lore, you'll discover that mermaids aren't actually very sweet. In fact, in most depictions, they are shown to be rather mean-spirited creatures. They are forever trying to down ships and drown an assortment of people, mostly sailors. Your sea mother didn't want you to have to experience all that. Also, she had a higher plan for your human life in mind.

If you want to fulfill your highest destiny, listen carefully. If you're not in the communications field yet, get as much information as you can about how you can move into that arena as quickly as possible. Look for a university that is engaged in studying human/dolphin communication. (Dolphins, by the way, could tell you a lot about your past lives, because dolphins can remember all their incarnations vividly). I believe USC San Diego does that - also UCLA Berkley. Get a grant (one will become magically available as soon as you begin to look) to attend that university and start studying!

In a short time, you'll begin to see more and more that your mission in life is to help unite the sea world with the world of humans. Sadly, human beings are so abusive to the sea. Perhaps we're seeing such deadly tsunamis and hurricanes these days so we wake up to its blessings and power.

You could be a trailblazer in a new field called "Marine Life Communication," and there will be many discoveries that you will make with a new partner who also has had incarnations in the sea. This person will enter your life as a fellow student. As time passes, you'll be very instrumental in garnering attention for important ocean issues.

It's going to be a big job, and you'll need lots of support. The next time you're at the shore, write a letter to your Sea Mother in the sand at low tide. When the tide comes in and covers your letter, the waves will take your message to her. She's been waiting a long time to hear from you, and she'll guide you and help you along your path.

Astrea:

Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.

Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!

While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!

I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!

As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.

I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.

You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!

Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.

A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.

You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.