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Chiron's Dual Nature, by Martin Lass

(Article originally published in The Llewellyn Journal.)

My journey with Chiron began in 1992 when, while browsing the shelves of the Theosophical Society bookstore in Sydney, Australia, the ultimate cliché happened: a book fell off the shelves and landed at my feet. I looked around, half expecting Shirley MacLaine to come around the corner! Not seeing her, I picked up the book and looked at the title—Chiron and the Healing Journey, by Melanie Reinhart. Not interested in asteroids at the time, I simply put the book back and went on my merry way. Little did I know at the time that this event would be the first in a series of synchronicities marking Chiron's forceful entry into my life.

Having studied astrology since the age of twelve and having practiced professionally for many years, I felt as though there was still something missing—a key that would unlock the astrology chart and bring together what seemed at the time to be a whole lot of disconnected pieces. Interestingly, I felt that my life at the time was also a collection of such pieces—disconnected, disjointed, unrelated and misshapen.

In the midst of this inner and outer turmoil, I remember calling out to whoever might have been listening in the greater cosmos: Why was my life so fragmented? Why did I feel so alone? Why did I feel like an outsider, like an alien on an alien planet? Why did I feel as though there was something missing, something that seemed just out of my grasp, something that might otherwise bring together the scattered pieces of my life?

A few weeks later, a psychic friend of mine called me out of the blue, saying that she had some messages for me from her spiritual guides. She wouldn't tell me the messages on the phone, so we arranged to meet later in the week.

In the intervening days, I had a powerful dream. In the dream, a woman was dying in my arms. It may have been my wife, my mother, my daughter or a lover—it didn't matter, except that it was female. In the midst of my anguish, she died. Nearly overcome with emotional pain, I dove down toward the pain, into the darkness of my psyche. As I approached the source of the pain, it became almost too much to bear. At that moment, though, the woman came alive again, and my pain was transformed into pure love. With my chest almost bursting with this love, I awoke, tears streaming down my face. In hindsight, I recognized that a great healing had taken place. I had recovered my disowned feminine side.

A few days later, my psychic friend came to visit. Among other things, she told me that I needed to know about Chiron and to work with its energies. She said Chiron was the "wounded healer," and that it was all about recovering and healing the lost pieces of our lives—our disowned and unloved parts.

As she spoke about Chiron, I felt some of the pieces of my life come together: the bookstore cliché, my quest for the missing key to unifying astrology charts, the feeling of being an outsider, the disconnectedness of my life and, of course, my recent dream. An underlying connection and pattern began to emerge, and, somewhere in the recesses of my mind, I felt a door open, a door to a new yet somehow ancient and more direct understanding of the living world. Although I did not know where this would lead me, I knew at that moment, without knowing exactly why, that I had found the key I had been searching for.

The upshot of it all was that, for the first time, I looked at where Chiron sat in my own natal chart—its sign, house, aspects, travel, and current transits. I was floored, to say the least! It answered many questions about the way I felt about myself and about my life—particularly in relation to feeling unloved and in relation to the way in which I expressed my woundedness.

In the ensuing months, I would also see that placing Chiron into the astrological picture would answer the many questions I had concerning how to unify the otherwise disconnected pieces of the astrology chart. What were previously collections of clinical, dry, disconnected planetary influences were transformed into living, breathing, dynamic pictures of people's lives.

Perhaps the most striking feature of this series of synchronicities, though, lay in my Chiron transits. At the time of the aforementioned meeting, a conjunction of Chiron and Mercury was transiting my natal Sun-Uranus conjunction and I was fast approaching my Chiron half-Return. Moreover, shortly after this meeting, I experienced a spontaneous and cathartic past-life memory of the loss of a loved one. When I later examined the transits, I found that transiting Chiron was exactly conjunct my natal Uranus, and transiting Venus was exactly conjunct my natal Sun. I needed no more convincing! In the ensuing years, it became apparent that Chiron had chosen me to be an emissary, a spokesman for its healing messages.

The journey of the last decade and more has been an enlightening one, with Chiron as my primary planetary guide. It has been a journey of delving deeply into my own wounds and issues, as mirrored by Chiron in my natal chart. This is only half the story, though. The other half has been the miraculous journey of healing—not only for me, but also for the many people close to me, as well as for the many clients with whom I have worked. True to its astrological glyph, Chiron was (and is) certainly the key.

As wondrous as those early years were, I did not suspect at the time how vast a picture Chiron would eventually paint. Nor did I realize how relevant (and obvious, in retrospect!) it was that Chiron was discovered exactly when it was.

In short, Chiron's discovery augurs a new paradigm, a new way of looking at ourselves and at the world around us. It augurs a revolution in consciousness and consciousness's connection to health and disease and function and dysfunction—a revolution the likes of which the world has not known in over two thousand years.

Article originally published in The Llewellyn Journal. Copyright Llewellyn Worldwide, 2005. All rights reserved.

Please help! My daughter was born four weeks early, and the clock in our house stopped at the exact time she was born: 7:34 p.m. on February 25, 2006. However, the pendulum continued to swing for months afterwards even though the time never moved. (There is only one battery that ran both the time and pendulum.) When we moved in June 2009, I put the clock in a room downstairs. I have been afraid to change the battery for fear of ruining something. I was told that I should fix the clock or the stuck energy would hold her back from something in her life. What do I do? And what does this mean? I was also told that the clock stopped because she did not want to enter this world and had changed her mind but it was too late. Is this true? I am so confused because she is a miracle baby and is very smart and healthy.

Laurie

Susyn:

You don't need to worry about the clock stopping or having it fixed. Most likely, the clock was stopped by a guardian angel or loved one from the other side in order to mark the exact time of this important birth, in which case this not about your daughter but about the event.

Clocks that stop, computers that dim, and electronics that act up are typical signs of spiritual activity. The Spirit who caused this was trying to make its presence known, and this was the best way it could find to celebrate the birth of your daughter. If you think of a loved one who recently crossed over, perhaps a grandparent or other relative, you may find your culprit.

The idea that the clock being stuck could keep your baby from moving forward is nothing to concern yourself with. Notice that the part of the clock that keeps time is the only thing that stopped. We might view the pendulum, which continued to move, as representing life, breath and heartbeat.

Once you determine who it was that stopped the clock to mark her birth, you can decide whether or not you want to keep the clock as it is so you can treasure it as a sign from a loved one on the other side, or put a new battery in it to restore the clock to working order. Either way, this won't have any effect on your daughter. In fact, I think this whole experience serves as an indication that your daughter has a very special guardian angel watching over her from the spirit world, so it's a very positive sign.

The idea that your daughter changed her mind and did not want to be born is contradicted by the fact that she came four weeks early. That in itself proves that she was anxious to come into the world and could not wait another minute. You do not mention her date of birth or if her early arrival changed her astrological sign. This may be another factor to consider when pondering the meaning of her early arrival.

The soul is very particular about the time and manner in which it comes into the world. I have a nephew whose sign changed from the expected Libra to Virgo when he was born four weeks early. Since he has all the qualities of a Virgo, I like to think he knew exactly when it was time for him to be born. My own son, on the other hand, arrived six weeks late, thus changing his sign from Pisces to Taurus, and he carries many Taurus traits that have served him well on his journey through life.

When I focus on your daughter, I see her as healthy, happy and magical, with no signs of trouble around her, so please do not worry about the clock or the fact that she came four weeks early.

*****

Mata:

I've heard many stories about clocks stopping at the moment of death but this is the first I've heard of it happening at the moment of birth. I see two main possible explanations here, and neither of them are negative in any way.

The first possible explanation doesn't see special meaning in this event, for it attributes it to natural forces. One theory for why watches sometimes stop when someone dies is rooted in how our own energy can affect the energy of the things around us. There are some people who can never wear watches because their own energy is so strong it makes electrical things around them go haywire.

When electrical appliances go crazy at moments of emotional intensity, it may be because the strong energy of a person essentially caused the device to blow a fuse. If this was the case in your situation, it could be that your own energy at the intense moment of giving birth caused your clock to stop. It could also be that the energy of someone else in the family was so charged with the momentous event of your daughter's birth that it caused this to happen.

I'm not partial to this explanation myself, but if this clock is something you treasure, you were very anxious about the premature timing of your daughter's birth, and you had an intense delivery experience, it could explain this strange phenomenon.

The other possible explanation does attribute special meaning to this event. In this scenario, a conscious metaphysical being caused the clock to stop at that exact moment in order to send you a sign. That metaphysical being could be the soul of your daughter, but it could also be a departed relative who wanted to let you know they were there for this momentous occasion, or even a spirit guide telling you that this child was destined to be born to you for you have a very special spiritual bond.

Of these options, I would bet on a departed relative causing this striking sign, for it is very common for departed family members to gather around on special family occasions such as holidays, reunions, weddings, funerals, deaths and births. It is also common for them to try to reach out and let you know that they are there.

You say that your daughter is smart and healthy. As a wise woman I once knew often said, Don't borrow trouble. Since there are no real problems here, it's foolish to assume the worst. Further, if this is a sign related to your daughter's destiny, that destiny will prove stronger than anything that is done to this clock, so you should feel free to fix it if you'd like to have it working again.

Astrea:

Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.

Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!

While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!

I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!

As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.

I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.

You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!

Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.

A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.

You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.