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Personal Crises: Identifying and Conquering Our Struggles, by Alexandra Chauran

(Article originally published in The Llewellyn Journal.)

Middle age gets an undeserved reputation for crises. Some blame the stars, pointing to a rough Saturn Return painting the astrological skies. But, realistically, the rash actions that we associate with a midlife crisis can happen at any and every phase in life. Once you recognize that strife and struggle between two opposing outlooks can cause a spiritual and emotional crisis, you'll see that many stages of life have a similar challenge. As the author of Getting Through It: Reclaim and Rebuild Your Life After Adversity, Change, or Trauma, I'd like to introduce you to the many crises of life so that you won't feel so alone.

Trust Versus Mistrust
Psychologist Erik Erikson wrote a theory about psychological development that proposed that we are all supposed to go through emotional crises in life. We intuitively know that this is true, since popular culture widely accepts the idea of teenage identity crisis and a mid-life crisis during adulthood. Erikson noted, however, that some crises come about out of order and are triggered by something big happening later in life, just like what’s happening to you now. So, for example, if you skipped the identity crisis in your teenage years, you might have it later in life. If you find out that you have a life-limiting illness, you might go through a crisis that you weren't due for until old age. Over the next few paragraphs, we'll explore the Eriksonian crises and how you can process them now, if necessary.

Consider the crisis of trust versus mistrust. At some point in your life, you hopefully learned to trust people, such as a caregiver when you were an infant. If you never learned to trust, you may find your crisis is forcing you to place your trust in a professional, the medical industry, or the judicial system. Write in your journal how you feel about the people in whom you should place your trust, and how you can work through this crisis, if applicable. Explore areas of trust and mistrust in your life, seeking to find a balance of reasonable trust.

Autonomy Versus Shame and Doubt
Very young children insist, "I can do it myself" when attempting daily tasks, with varying degrees of success. If we were supported by loving parents who also encouraged a healthy degree of independence when we were toddlers, chances are that we were able to develop a similarly healthy autonomy. If, however, we were smothered or neglected or somehow skipped this stage, a traumatic event can leave us feeling hopelessly incompetent.

Remember that one of the few emotions that you should try to actively prevent yourself from feeling is shame. If you are feeling shame connected with your level of dependence on others or isolation from those who can help you, this crisis is one that you should explore and resolve. Reach for your inner source of competence and power, and tell yourself that mistakes along the way to independence are okay. If there are people in your life who do not support any degree of independence on your part, talk with them and set up some boundaries that help you find more freedom. Write in your journal about any shame you feel connected to your independence or lack thereof.

Initiative Versus Guilt
Preschool-age children move into a crisis of making their own independent choices and learning to live with their own responsibility for outcomes. You can probably pick out the people in your life who never fully resolved this conflict because they have a hard time taking responsibility for their own mistakes. Always have compassion for the people who experience a sensation of guilt that feels too great to bear. Your current situation might cause you to spiral back into the preschool age thought that you might have somehow caused misfortunes that are no fault of your own.

If you are still feeling a sense of guilt over the course of your life, you might just be living through another iteration of the initiative versus guilt crisis. Look at your situation with a reasonable eye, perhaps with the assistance of your most trusted loved ones or a qualified professional. If there is something that you can reasonably do to mitigate your current situation, by all means you should take the initiative to try. However, it does no good to attempt to blame yourself for random happenstance or to continue to beat yourself up over past choices. Write in your journal about any past decisions related to your condition that make you feel guilty, then write down anything that is still your responsibility to improve.

Industry Versus Inferiority
School-aged children move through a crisis of industry versus inferiority in which they attempt to work harder on jobs at school and, if they are unable to complete that work for whatever reason, they may spiral into a sense of never being able to complete the work. I can tell you that my six-year-old son is going through this phase right now, and he often quits his chores or schoolwork before he's given them an honest effort. Unfortunately, traumatized adults can feel echoes of this early life crisis when some calamity makes it quite impossible to honour their obligations at work or at school.

You'll know if you're going through the industry versus isolation crisis all over again if you know for a fact that nobody would blame you for doing less work and yet you find that you're inwardly calling yourself lazy or inferior. Explore in your journal any work that you are missing because you miss being productive. Brainstorm some new ways that you can feel just as industrious without putting your health and healing at risk.

Identity Versus Role Confusion
Ah, now we've landed upon the cliche identity crisis experienced by teenagers around the world. While we might remember with fondness the silly outfits and fads that we tried in order to experience new roles in our social circles, the identity crisis thrust upon us by trauma and tragedy is terrifying and invalidating. Are you the type of person you are because of the deeds that you do? If the answer to that question is yes, you'll struggle once you can't do the same activities anymore. You will be thrust into the very real conundrum of trying to figure out what aspects of your personality are stable attributes, and to what inner virtues you can cling when everything else is stripped away.

Sometimes other people can be more perceptive when you are confused about yourself. Ask people closest to you to name three adjectives that describe you, and what they thought about you when they first met you. You will likely notice a pattern about what people say about you, regardless of what point in your life they met you. Once you have a list of a few stable attributes people have noticed before and after whatever events have shaped you now, meditate on those personality traits and how to best express them in the world. Quiz your loved ones: What are three words that describe you? What is the first thing that he or she noticed about you when you met?

Intimacy Versus Isolation
As young adulthood matures into midlife, many people turn to companionship and the search for a soulmate. Couplehood is not the ultimate achievement in life, and there are plenty of people who are joyfully single. However, most people continue to seek intimacy (if not in a romantic relationship, tha=en in their friendships and family interactions). If your problems have caused a best friend or even a spouse to take their leave from your life, you will find yourself spiraling into a crisis of feeling isolated by your issues. It may feel like nobody in your life understands what you are going through, and such feelings are reinforced by well-meaning attempts by others to draw parallels between your personal tragedy and what may seem to be relatively minor troubles of their own.

My experience with isolation has been a rough one, since I lost a spouse and three of my closest friends with whom I connected every day. I can confirm that, if you lose enough people who are close to you, it can feel like there can be nobody else, because those people you lost fill your entire social horizon. There can be others with whom you can connect on an emotionally intimate level, but such connections cannot happen overnight. You'll need time, perhaps months, to witness whether you can trust your deepest thoughts with somebody who is shifting from being an acquaintance to a friend, or from a friend to a good friend. If you witness signs that somebody is a gossiper or overreacts to anything more than small talk, it is better to be lonely a bit longer while waiting for the right connection to develop.

Evaluate the friends that are currently in your life. Have some of them transitioned from being an acquaintance to being a friend? Of your current friends, are there any who could potentially be a good friend? Are your potential good friends trustworthy with your heart? Invite a friend to tea and see if you can talk about what is important in your lives.

Generativity Versus Stagnation
The midlife crisis may be more technically described as one of generativity versus stagnation, meaning contributions to others and future generations or feeling stuck and self-absorbed. Any traumatic event requires so much self-care that one can easily feel selfish. There is so much navel-gazing to do in pursuit of finding one's true purpose in life in the face of limited.

In your journal, I'd like you to write about what pursuits in your life, regardless of whether you still do them, have been a fulfilling way for you to contribute to your community, the planet, or to future generations. For some people, your interactions at work in one of your jobs may have been a source of generativity. For other people, time spent raising a family or caring for one's elders. Make a list that encompasses the first time you felt fulfilled with your contributions to the last time. Make note of anything that each of your pursuits had in common and any barriers you had to success.

Ego Integrity Versus Despair
The last Eriksonian crisis point reached in life is that of old age, ego integrity versus despair. Ego integrity is the state of being satisfied with a life well-lived, having come to terms with the choices you've made and feeling like you've generally done the best you can with what you have. Despair is what Erikson decided was the emotion in play when elderly people became obsessed with the past. Ideally, you would only encounter this crisis during your golden years, but if you're facing life-limiting illness or if you're just an overachiever you might end up puzzling over this one at a younger age.

Everyone has made mistakes in life, and some of your own mistakes may loom large during a time when it feels right to consider your life in review. Practice self-forgiveness. Some people pray for forgiveness from the divine, but if you cannot forgive yourself, your sense of crisis may remain. Take time in meditation today to talk to your higher self. Instead of begging yourself for forgiveness, try to inhabit the perspective of your higher self to become your own loving parent and forgive yourself. During any past mistakes that still haunt you, see yourself as somebody's wayward child. See the youth and immaturity in past choices and wrap yourself in love, comfort, and forgiveness. Forgive yourself for past mistakes in the same way that a loving and divine parent would forgive.

Article originally published in The Llewellyn Journal. Copyright Llewellyn Worldwide, 2020. All rights reserved.

This question is inspired by an experience I had while engaging with a client in a therapy session. I am a natural empath, have studied energy healing, and have been known to see a spirit or two in my time, but this takes the cake. I'm still trying to understand what happened. I met with a middle-aged female suffering from significant depression. We sat together for a few minutes, and then I noticed an aura around her face. I can sometimes see blocked energy stuck around the head, but this was not like that. This was a bluish color and was clearly the face of another being. This happened once before with another client, but the experience was slightly different. In the past experience, this face was simply very confused about its presence, and stayed looking out of the side of person's head. In this case, the face looked as though it was crawling out of the woman in front of me. It peered directly at me as if to inquire who I was. I have to say, this was pretty freaky, and I was a little leery for the rest of the session. I have a vague understanding of what this might have been, but can you share your take on this? If I were working with her in the capacity of energy healer instead of clinical therapist, what might I do to safely intervene? (Or should I not do that?) Many thanks for your wisdom!

Lisa

Astrea:

Occasionally, I have seen entities who have walked in to living people show themselves to others who are sensitive. They do this for many reasons, but usually they just want to get the attention of the person to whom they appear.

The hostess body and the spirit may not even be aware of what is going on. Most of the time these entities move through the person within a few days and the person is just fine. The one left wondering what is going on is the person to whom the entity chose to appear.

When I've seen things like this, the entity wasn't there to help that person or do good. In fact, this kind of other-worldly being can be dangerous both to the person it enters and the people around it.

Because they are borrowing another person's body, these spirits are totally uninhibited about using it. As long as no one sees them controlling the person, it's as if that person becomes someone else. The hosts may even experience periods of time they can't remember or suffer severe blackouts.

People who use recreational drugs or are on large doses of mind-altering medicines are often victims of these creatures, for the altered state weakens the person's aura, which gives the entity an opportunity to go into the person's body.

Very few of us are able to detect such activity, but when we do, we have to try to help the host person be rid of it. The easiest way to rid a person of a walk-in entity is to tell it to leave three times. If you have no idea of the name of the entity, you can just say, GET OUT! GET OUT! GET OUT!

The fact that you know it's there will discourage it from continuing to use the same host. Sending it back to where it came from is also a good idea, so add that to the order you give.

These creatures can also be called in via a reverse process, but outside of the movies, most people aren't foolish enough to do something like that. Hosting a hostile entity can be extremely draining and harmful.

If your client has recovered and you don't see that blue face within or around her anymore, the entity has probably moved on, and there isn't any reason to scare her by telling her now. However, you should be diligent in keeping up with her in case this thing comes back, or in case something else invades her body in the future.

Try to keep these entities out of your office if you can, and do ritual clearings of your space on a regular basis. Once a week usually takes care of those vibrations, but you can trust your high level of awareness to let you know when an energy clearing is needed.

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Susyn:

As an energy worker and empath, you will most likely encounter more of these types of entities as your therapeutic skills continue to grow. For decades, doctors have been tossing pills at people with depression. Those of us more in tune with subtle energies possess growing awareness that above and beyond the circumstantial reasons for the depression, other entities can contribute or even be the direct cause of debilitating psychological problems.

There are a variety of entities that can attach to a person, and they may present themselves in a variety of forms. As you work intimately with your clients and you are psychically sensitive enough to see these spirits, the conditions are ripe for you to have further experiences of this nature.

The first thing you must do, whether you are acting as a clinical therapist or energy healer, is surround yourself with white light to form a protective barrier. You might visualize yourself in an opalescent orb before the session so that whatever occurs, you'll be safe.

Then, using the same format you would with a patient who might change personalities, you can gauge how much interaction to encourage, as well as when to stop the session if things become too unbalanced.

Speaking to the apparition, ask it what it wants and what it is doing here. The spirit may even begin asking you questions, and by dialoguing directly, you will probably be able to determine how best to help your patient.

Oftentimes in these situations, these discarnates will attach themselves to a person simply because they know that he or she is in a vulnerable state. They may have no prior personal relationship with these people at all.

On the other hand, if you feel this entity is contributing to or even causing the client's current problems, you may want to encourage the apparition to move towards the light. Often simply pointing out that this is an option will free lost earthbound souls.

In order not to frighten your client, you may want to communicate with this entity silently and see if that is effective. If the entity is not cooperative or becomes angry or negative, you'll want to cease trying to reason with it. At that point, you may have to suggest to your client that he or she seek out a professional trained in these matters, such as a Spiritualist or exorcist, in order to effectively deal with the problem.

Once your client is able to rid herself of this entity, you may find her depression lifts immediately, or that your therapy sessions suddenly become much more productive and healing.

Astrea:

Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.

Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!

While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!

I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!

As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.

I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.

You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!

Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.

A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.

You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.