I've always enjoyed performing. I've trained and worked for so long to gain some footing and success in my chosen field. My heart and soul has been focused on this my whole life. Though I've had to do other things to stay afloat financially, I've always remained true to what I feel my life purpose is. If all of a sudden, my angels told me this wasn't going to work and helped me uncover something else that I love more, I would follow it gladly, for this has not been an easy road. I would love to make movies that inspire people, that give them a glimpse of the beauty of the human spirit, but alas, it seems I'll never get that opportunity. Is it possible for someone to know what their purpose is and really feel it deep down in their soul, to work towards it their whole life and then never be able to actually achieve it? Should living your life purpose be this much of a challenge? Thank you so much for listening.
Jen
Susyn:
Our lives are driven by all sorts of different purposes, passions and dreams. Though you may feel like you have not accomplished what you set out to do, you must keep in mind that for years, you have been following your heart. This in itself is the greatest purpose of all.
You may feel like your angels are trying to lead you in another direction when that may not actually be the case. One of my favorite sayings is Don't give up before the miracle happens.
Our dreams are subject to many events outside our control; we are wise to trust in divine timing and view any detours we experience as designed to create an even better outcome.
As a young girl, I developed a passion for astrology and all things metaphysical. I had no idea that this was something I could make a living at, as at the time, the only practicing astrologers and psychics I knew of were hippies typically living on the West Coast.
I set aside my passion to pursue a career in art and spent the next fifteen years working in commercial art. My job drained me but it was a living. Though I continued to delve into metaphysics in my spare time, there seemed to be no outlet for me to pursue it professionally.
Then by chance, my angels opened a door to me, and I found myself once again pursuing the mysterious world of metaphysics with a passion. Within two years, this became my career, and I have never been happier or more fulfilled. I may not have the fame and fortune so important by today's standards, but I awaken each day feeling blessed to have a career I love.
Many life stories illustrate how people take all sorts of winding roads to the fulfillment of their dreams. One of my favorite stories is about the path Kurt Russell's life took. He was determined to be a famous baseball player and spent years honing his skills. Because his father was in the movies, he received opportunities to star in TV shows and movies as a child. Since this was not his passion, he spent summers training with a minor league baseball team.
Unfortunately, in his early twenties, Kurt suffered a major shoulder injury that ended his baseball career. He then resigned himself to the profession of acting. Over time, however, he has come to see that his true purpose and passion lay in a field very different from the one he felt called to for so many years.
Whether you experience fame and success in your career or not, you can take joy in knowing that you are living with passion. If your higher purpose involves turning to something new, then when the time is right, your angels will open doors to you as if by magic. In the mean time, I encourage you to live in each moment and find joy and fulfillment in doing any work that fulfills your physical needs while nourishing your heart and spirit.
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Mata:
It sounds like your dream is to make it big as an actress in Hollywood. If we look at this from the physical perspective of supply and demand, it may seem impossible for this dream to come true. Fortunately, when trying to fulfill our dreams, we don't have to be limited by physical conditions.
To transcend physical conditions, however, we do have to work on a metaphysical level. Tons of hard work will get you nowhere if you're not in vibrational harmony with what you desire. It's not enough to want something with all your heart - you must also have the will and courage to build it into being and the wisdom to know how to rally the Universe behind your efforts.
I spent some time imagining what I would do if I were in your shoes. The most important thing is to actively work with the law of attraction. Have you ever wondered why there are some terrible actors working in Hollywood, while many people far more gifted are working as waitstaff? Clearly, success is about far more than talent and hard work.
If I were you, I would spend some time each day reading about the law of attraction and working with law of attraction exercises. I would also summon the help of my spirit guides and angels.
You wrote that sadly, you may never get the opportunity
to do what you love. People tend to view destiny, dreams, and the law of attraction too passively. Instead of waiting for life to give you a break, look for ways to co-create what you desire with the universe. Many people want the same thing you do. Since we get what we give, if you can create an outlet for others while creating one for yourself, you will set yourself up for all sorts of lucky breaks.
For example, instead of struggling to land a role in someone else's film, you could produce your own and give yourself a starring role in it. If you collaborate with other dreamers, you can do it on a budget like the highly successful producers of Paranormal Activity, The Blair Witch Project and Clerks did.
Pray for ideas and inspirations and be ready to take inspired action. You must be willing to take some risks to create the opportunities you desire. If you open your mind to fresh inspiration and new possibilities, you will see that there are infinite ways your good can come to you. The key is to put the ideas that come to you to good use. Act on impulses to talk to people, go places, and do certain things. Ask to be guided, watch for signs, and take action on them.
Also, read books by experts on making your dreams come true. If you read some of the classics like The Dynamic Laws of Prosperity and The Game of Life and How to Play It, you will see how dreams come true in amazing and unexpected ways when we let go of needing to work hard and start working with the Universe instead.
Astrea:
Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.
Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!
While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!
I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!
As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.
I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.
You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!
Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.
A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.
You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.