I've been Buddhist for 25 years, and chant on a regular basis. I believe this is the philosophy that is most accurate in regards to our place in the universe and our responsibility in all things seen and unseen. Having said that, I've just broken up with a man I love. He actually did in some ways become my honzon (object of worship). I didn't worship him, but I did try very hard and put up with lots of stuff for the sake of making our relationship work. Well, it didn't. He's gone. It's painful, but not unbearable. After he left, my plants all started to grow and bloom! On the day he left, I was walking in midtown Manhattan, and I saw a nun dressed in a white habit. Five days later, in another part of Manhattan, I saw this same nun going into the building I was going into for a party. I told her that I'd seen her earlier that week, and she asked me where. I told her and she confirmed that it was her I'd seen. During that whole week I must have seen at least five sets of twins or encountered twins in some unusual way. I just kept running into twins. There seemed to be some kind of synchronicity at play. What do twins and nuns in white have to do with anything? Who knows? Perhaps you do!. Thanks for your attention. I really enjoy your column.
Constance
Dreamchaser:
I'm glad you've found a belief system that works for you. I know quite a few people who are very grounded in their Buddhist faith.
As a Buddhist, I'm sure you've heard of the Twin-Snake energy. I believe the twins you have been seeing all over New York City symbolize that same Twin-Snake. Other people might call this Kundalini Energy.
Kundalini literally means "coiling." The energy moves in a spiraling motion, like coils on a snake. It starts at the base of our spine and runs up into our heads. We should be very careful about releasing it too quickly, for that literally can make us sick.
Here are a few results of opening up your Kundalini:
*You activate your DNA.
*You open up to your clairvoyant abilities.
*You feel connected to the ONENESS of the Universe.
*Your mind feels expanded and starts to search for higher awareness and knowledge.
*You allow your ego to step aside and start to connect with a higher frequency of consciousness.
*You more often feel unconditional love, peace and a connection with Spirit and All That Is.
As you can see, those things have already started to happen in your life. For example, I'm sure you saw the nun two times because you are connected with All That Is. That was a manifestation of your own energy.
The fact that she was wearing white is significant. White has always signified truth, purity, innocence and PEACE. Now that this man is out of your life, you are seeking and finding PEACE. The color white was a clear sign from Spirit just for you.
Your plants growing and blooming illustrate how YOUR energy field and the energies in your house are clearing. His being gone is a good thing. Now everything in your house can grow and bloom - including YOU and your dreams.
If you watch them, your plants will show you how you can be happy about this change in circumstances. Some people can clog up our energies and stop us from growing and evolving. He was doing that to you - and your plants!
I know you miss him from time to time, but be thankful for the blessings you shared and the lessons you learned. Then set your sights on someone new - if that's what you want.
It's a Universal Law that we'll get something better than we had before if we are evolving and opening to it ourselves. If you continue to ask the Universe for more and better, that's what you'll get.
I wish you continued healing and growing.
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Astrea:
Constance, you sound like a very interesting, spiritually aware person. As much as I'd like to tell you that these strange coincidences mean that the "man you love" will come back and be the person you need him to be, that's not what I'm sensing.
Scorpios are exciting, mysterious and fun to be with. They exude a powerful sexual aura. I can see how you would be naturally drawn to the OPPOSITE aspects of your own loving, giving personality.
Sadly, all the things that drew you to him in the first place later manifested as some of the more negative Scorpio personality traits. The exciting part became devious. The mysterious part became secretive. The fun part became fun, but only if HE thought it was fun.
You began to see the REAL person underneath the actor, and as a Buddhist, you saw that he wasn't right for you any more, so you released him. It was the right thing to do, and you seem aware of that and resigned to it.
I'm sorry he couldn't keep being who you thought he was. I feel that he WANTED to, but just wasn't able to pull it off. It's very sad for him too, as he will NEVER find ANYONE who will love him the way you did!
Based on your birthdays, personally I hope you're finished with this person. He wasn't right for you. He didn't understand you, and he wasn't really trying to, either.
He has a selfish streak in him a mile wide! He never really took the time to consider you or your feelings, and he wasn't a spiritual person either. You deserve someone who is as gentle and aware as you are, and that guy was NOT it.
These signs mean that you've made the right choice in letting him go. Your plants growing and blooming now that he's gone is just amazing and wonderful.
This is the Universe at work, trying to give you a tangible sign that you did the right thing by ending this relationship. That your plants are happier without the boyfriend around means that you'll eventually be happier too, once you feel better and start giving yourself the chance to grow and bloom either alone or with someone new.
I really love how you say, "It hurts, but the pain isn't unbearable." Isn't that true of most relationships that go wrong?
I hope our readers absorb that phrase, and if THEY are chanters, will use that mantra the next time one of THEIR relationships doesn't work out the way they hoped. We would have a MUCH happier world if we could all realize that just because we make ONE bad choice, it doesn't have to color our lives forever!
Good luck, Dear Heart. New love is on the way!
Astrea:
Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.
Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!
While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!
I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!
As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.
I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.
You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!
Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.
A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.
You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.