Something happened in the last couple of months; it's like a light bulb has turned on. I woke up one day and all of a sudden everything seemed three-dimensional to me. Colors are more vivid and I am acutely aware of my surroundings, even the smallest little details in nature and the faintest sounds. I'm asking myself what this life is all about and if there is more to it than what I can see. I can't really put my finger on any one thing that happened, but it's like I am sensing another plane just beyond my reach. I am preoccupied with what my purpose is and who can benefit from my being here on earth. I feel like a hungry child that can't get enough to eat and I am always reaching out for more but I don't know what I'm reaching for. I feel like I am supposed to be doing something meaningful but it's just beyond my grasp. I feel like I'm a stranger to my husband because he doesn't see what I see and doesn't even want to think about what could be beyond whatever is right in front of his face. I feel like I'm traveling at warp speed and he has chosen to stay behind. What is this that I'm feeling and how can I tap into more of it?
Vicki
Astrea:
The feeling that you're having is greater awareness. Try to slow down a bit, for if you rush things, you'll turn yourself OFF instead of on. Right now, you're on overload, which is a frantic feeling, but you can take control. Meditate and take your time determining what you would like to receive from these experiences. Don't make this into something that you or others may resent.
You are starting to notice your various psychic abilities. You've had these all your life but you haven't been as aware of them as you are now. Often our religious training or lack of spiritual life can create an atmosphere where we aren't into our own awareness. Your spiritual development has finally taken first place in your life.
While everything is a choice, I personally feel that the timing of when we come into awareness isn't always convenient. Labor Day, 1985, was the date I finally accepted my potential. I still have experiences of that extra
you're describing, but they're not constant or new now.
At first, breakthroughs in awareness can be so overwhelming that we can't get our minds around them, and psychic powers can take us over until we get control of those abilities.
Even people who ask God to take their gift away can come to a point where their gift must be acknowledged. People who are born with psychic ability and try to ignore it throughout their lifetime are often destined to live a future life without the ability they threw away before.
We have a responsibility to make the most of our gifts. If it's in your Spirit, you can ignore it but you can't destroy it. You can put it off but you can't escape it. I'm happy to have it, now. When I was younger and super busy, it was a drag.
At first, experiences like this can make us feel all alone in the world.
As for your poor husband, you might view him as a gift too. Being with someone who is totally skeptical about this kind of thing can save you some time when it comes to processing. Don't try to explain what he can't understand. Even if he NEVER understands, you will still be able to rely on him for centering and grounding.
Try to be patient and use his reactions as a barometer to determine how much you can open up. All of this could actually make you two closer if you appreciate that someone has to stay in normal
reality.
Also, as you struggle with feeling like he just doesn't understand, please remember that this isn't all about you; your ability is with you so you can better love and help others too.
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Susyn:
It can be exciting as well as unsettling to experience this type of spiritual awakening. Although it seems to have come on fast, this transformation has been years in the making. Each of us has a timeframe for our own personal development, and when we are ready, we can find ourselves in a brand new world quite unexpectedly.
When in the midst of an awakening, many find it common to have the sorts of experiences you describe: vivid colors, acute hearing and vision, and a longing to know more about what is happening are classic signs.
I recall the wonder of my first awakening as quite similar to what you describe. It seemed to happen all of a sudden, and once it did, everything in my world took on a new form. As in the case of your husband, no one else seemed to understand or be able to relate to me or what I was experiencing.
There is no need to worry, however, as you will calm down somewhat as time goes by, and your husband will acclimate himself to the changes you will continue to experience.
During a first spiritual awakening, everything seems to look, smell and feel different. This happens because your entire being is awake and aware of a whole new dimension of life. It can be quite exhilarating, and is definitely a feeling you will want to capture and maintain.
The important thing to remember is that once you are spiritually awakened, it is impossible to go back to sleep, so you need not concern yourself with the possibility that these feelings will be lost to you at some point.
Now is the time to follow your instincts and allow a brand new world to open up to you. Whether this awakening draws you into a new group of people, different spiritual or metaphysical studies, or a new career, you can be sure that your world is about to be transformed.
One of the most powerful ways to understand and work with spiritual awakening is to immerse yourself in spiritual practices. Meditation, divination, spiritual classes and interaction with other people walking the same path can enhance this process.
As you begin to cross paths with others who are awakened, you'll want to keep an eye out for a spiritual mentor who can guide you through all the stages of your transition. An experienced traveler can guide you if you start to go off track, affirm the unusual experiences you have, and teach you new methods to connect more deeply with Spirit and the world around you.
Congratulations on your awakening, and welcome to the world of spiritual enlightenment!
Astrea:
Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.
Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!
While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!
I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!
As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.
I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.
You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!
Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.
A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.
You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.