My name is Tammy, and I'm writing because I keep having horrific nightmares. They are full of Satanic, evil, demonic-looking beings who keep morphing into different forms. I haven't had a pleasant dream in over 10 years - I just have nightmare after nightmare. I'm wondering what this means, and if perhaps these nasty beings are actually attached to me in some way. I am a dancer in a strip bar, but I'm not a bad person! Someone told me that this could have something to do with past life experiences. What do you think? Is this normal? Are these more than just dreams on some level?
- Tammy
Dreamchaser:
I try to keep my answers general so that a great number of our readers will be able to relate to the subject matter each week. With this question, however, I'm going to have to get more personal, Tammy. While I'm sure there will be other readers who can relate to your situation, this particular answer is just for you.
As I often explain here, not every spiritual being is a beautiful, full-of-love and light angel. Sometimes astral entities are downright ugly and scary. If you view such beings as Satanic and evil, that is YOUR interpretation of their energy - it does not mean that you are accurately interpreting the identities of these beings.
You did get part of it right, Tammy: while these beings are negative or demonic,
they are not necessarily demonic in exactly the way you've been thinking.
Your childhood was one of the worst I have psychically viewed in a while. You suffered profoundly at the hands of some horrific people. You don't really talk about your childhood very much. You're happy you got out of it alive and in one piece, for the most part, so you try to tell yourself that it wasn't that bad.
Well Tammy, it was that bad. The reason I know this is because these beings in your dreams are YOUR demons. Every punch, every sexual assault, every verbally abusive word, every emotional trauma has a demon attached to it.
We create our own demons, and these ones are yours. These are the thoughts, feelings, words, etc., that you suppressed, shoved down and never spoke about. They come to you in your dreams because that is the only place they can be aired, for you have completely shut them out of your waking world. Drugs and alcohol tend to have that effect.
If you want healing, and you want the demons to go away, I recommend you purchase and sincerely work through a book entitled Living through the Meantime, by Iyanla Vanzant.
Also, long ago I learned that the word but
nullifies everything that comes before it. For example, if someone says to us, I love you but you make me crazy,
the only thing we hear on a subconscious level is you make me crazy.
You said, I am a dancer in a strip bar, but I'm not a bad person!
You are right - you are not a bad person. What you do for a living does not concern me - but it obviously does concern you.
If you exorcise your demons, your whole life will change. To get going with this process, just start doing the work in the book I recommended for you above.
These are your demons, and you created them, so you can make them go away. Nothing from the dark side
is out to get you. You are not a bad person; in fact, you have great potential for goodness, but you must believe in yourself and love yourself enough to change your life for the better.
I wish you healing on ALL levels.
*****
Astrea:
There are lots of old-fashioned ways to get rid of bad dreams. Some people say to turn your shoes in opposite directions and place them under the bed. Some say to put a piece of silver at the foot of your bed, and some say to place rosemary at the head of your bed.
St. Benedict is said to ward off bad dreams, and some Christians believe that hanging a St. Benedict medal over your bed will ward off nightmares. An arrowhead in a glass of water by your bed is an old American recipe for driving away nightmares.
Ten years is a long time to have nightmares every night! While night terrors come and go in many people's lives, this is more than that.
My first suggestion is that you seek some help from a medical doctor, for you need something to help you sleep a DREAMLESS sleep for a while. You need to break the pattern of having a nightmare every night. If you consult with a psychotherapist or any healer about any matter, be sure to mention your nightmares.
Of course you are not a bad person! Dancing in a strip bar is just a job, but spending so much time in a bar is another matter. Bars are full of negative vibrations. People are selling and buying drugs and bodies there, and trying to forget their problems.
The dream creatures you see represent the worst forms of the people who work at and frequent the bar. Can you correlate the people in your waking life to the ones you're dreaming?
You are a sponge and soak all that negativity up because you're more sensitive than other people. That negativity then comes out in your dreams.
This is not something you can turn off and on like a faucet, so perhaps it's time to work in some other kind of place, doing something different for a living. The negativity you've felt in those places has built up over the years, and your subconscious is doing everything it can to tell you it's time to get out of that business.
Of course, that is easier said than done. Dancing in strip bars can be as addictive as drugs for some people. It's very easy to be seduced by the money and even the glamour
of this line of work. Some people can work in a bar forever and never take a bit of that bar energy home with them, but you can't. It has become too much for you, Tammy, and you have to get out of there.
Find something else that you really enjoy doing, and get to work on doing that for a living. Is it decorating? Singing? Acting? Accounting? Is it another type of dancing? Is it teaching?
There is something in your heart that you've always wanted to do for a career, and the nightmares are trying to push you in that direction. Decide what you want to do after you end your career as a stripper, and start making plans and taking ACTIONS to make that your reality.
I believe as soon as you're engaged in something new and wonderful, your nightmares will naturally end.