I had a very strange experience one night last week. We had been away for a couple of weeks and on our return, I found I couldn't sleep properly because of the time difference. I had my eight-year-old son in bed with me because he was over-tired and I knew he would sleep better in my bed. Around 3:00 a.m., I was still awake and decided if I wasn't asleep in five minutes, I would go and make a cup of tea. The next thing I knew, it felt like the cat had jumped on the bed and was walking up to my back. As she was locked in my kitchen, I knew it wasn't her; in fact, it now felt heavy as it sat very close in the small of my back. I tried to reach over for my little boy, and that's when I realized I couldn't physically move at all. Then a noisy blowing started in my ear but I felt totally covered and secure. This lasted about a minute or two until the noise stopped. I pinched myself so I knew I was awake. I was - I really was! I then drifted off to sleep. This has puzzled and scared me a little. However, early this morning, it occurred to me that a child I aborted long ago would have been 21 years old this week. I am wondering if this visit could be a way this child tried to make contact. I have never had any other experiences like this in my house. Can you help?
It is interesting to note that when we are exhausted, we are more open and sensitive to the paranormal forces that surround us. This is also a time when important breakthroughs in awareness can occur.
Because of this, we may recall certain events from the past and tie them to paranormal experiences. Though the child you aborted wasn't on your mind, its memory was evoked in the wake of this experience. Though it may seem like a stretch, you can trust that your experience and the resulting memory were connected.
The fact that you felt secure and protected during this experience suggests that this was not a random event where an unknown entity of some type was sitting on your back and causing paralysis. When negative spirits make their presence known in this way, the emotions you would normally feel include fear, panic and distress.
It is possible that the spirit of the child you aborted years ago has always remained close to you and wanted to make its presence known to you during an important event that you would remember - its 21st birthday.
Though you have never had any experiences similar to this in the past, you may be able to initiate more contact with the child through guided meditation or a psychic reading. In this way, you can open the door to conversation with this precious spirit, which could heal and resolve any regret or concern you may carry either consciously or subconsciously.
To perform a guided meditation, find a quiet spot where you won't be interrupted and then light a few white and purple candles along with some sage incense. (These rituals are known to open a channel to the spirit world.)
Begin by visualizing the experience you had 21-plus years ago, and then ask for a picture of this spirit to take shape in your mind. At this point in the meditation, you can converse with your unborn child by either talking aloud to it or writing down the things you want to say. You can also ask questions of the child, such as if it was the cause of the sensations you felt that night, how it is doing, and if it is happy.
Taking the time to honor the spirit of this child will bring you to a place of wholeness, heal some old wounds, and reassure you that things have worked out in the best way possible. Once you do this, you will begin to feel a new freedom and light surrounding you, and become more in tune with the spirits who are there to comfort and guide you.
In the future, as you become more accepting of what these loving spirits want to share with you, you will experience more paranormal phenomena and further spiritual awakening.
My first thought is to ask you if you ever had a pet that died to whom you were very close, for the way you describe this small being climbing up on your bed certainly makes it sound like an animal.
I am very skeptical of your theory that this may have been your unborn child for a number of reasons. First of all, the soul doesn't enter the body of the baby in the early months of pregnancy. Most reliable sources say it first enters the fetus at quickening and then comes and goes between this world and the spirit world until the time of birth.
So the soul that was perhaps planning to be your child never took the form of a baby, but remained in the subtle energetic form of the spirit world. When perceived physically, souls generally appear as balls of energy. When perceived mentally, they may present a human form, but this is a projection for the sake of the person they are trying to communicate with.
I have never heard of anyone perceiving the spirit of an unborn child as physically interacting with them in the way you describe; they are seen as clouds of misty energy or mentally communicated with as projections of who they were in past lives or will become years down the road in this one.
Another reason I don't feel this was the spirit of your unborn child is because when a spirit learns a certain body will not be available to them, it usually quickly incarnates in a different body. It is therefore likely that this soul is alive and well either as the child of someone else or as your own eight-year-old.
That you didn't come up with the idea that this may have been your unborn child until some days later hints that this is something you logically worked out, not something you sensed intuitively. The fact that you had no such experiences in the 21 years prior to this also suggests that these two events were not related.
What you describe sounds to me like either the departed spirit of a beloved pet or a creature from another dimension such as a spirit guide or totem animal. Whoever this was, the fact that you felt reassured by its presence indicates that its intentions are loving and benevolent.
Though this abortion took place decades ago, it's clear that you still carry some regrets about that difficult decision. Despite how traumatic this may have been for you, I have never heard of the spirit of an unborn baby becoming earthbound. Since this soul would quickly have moved on to a different experience, it's most likely that another loving spiritual presence came to visit and perhaps comfort you that night.
Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.
Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!
While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!
I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!
As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.
I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.
You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!
Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.
A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.
You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.