I have done all sorts of spiritual studies from acupuncture to hypnosis to psychology, but I haven't found the right path for me. I have done volunteer work, paid work, and been self-employed, but after a while, I always lose interest. What I want is to just be a free spirit with no ties, to just play and travel and explore other cultures. My husband says that to do what I want to do, a person needs money, which I don't have a lot of. (He makes a decent living, but to travel the world would be expensive!) I feel lost and without direction, like I need a really good challenge. Do you think I just haven't found my niche, or do I need to pick a career path even if it's not so challenging so I can do everything else I want to do?
- Ina
Dreamchaser:
I do not believe that everyone has a destined career path. I don't think that sitting at the same job for 35 years and then retiring with a gold watch works for everyone. While it may be hard to believe, there are some people who love the structure of a secure, steady, 9-to-5 job, for they love the comfort of knowing what to expect every day.
Then there are people like you and me. I have worked so many different jobs in my life: I was a commercial diver, an accountant and now a psychic - and those are just the respectable
jobs! I also picked cotton, painted trim and shutters, laid concrete, etc.
I think it's normal for people like us to move on rather frequently. I have been working at Kajama longer than I have worked at any other place in my entire life, and I don't feel the need to move forward right now. That doesn't mean that as I evolve, I won't move on to something new again someday.
You are not broken, lazy or shiftless. You know what you like and you know what you want, you just need to figure out how to manifest that, because your belief system about money is in conflict with the dream in your heart.
I know I've been mentioning this in every column, but that's because it works! I recommend you watch The Secret on DVD. If you watch this and work its teachings, you can manifest what you want along with the money or whatever else you need to get it.
I also recommend you read a book entitled The Law of Attraction by Esther and Jerry Hicks. It will teach you how to carry The Secret forward and apply it to your everyday life. The ONLY reason you are not able to fulfill your dream of traveling the world is because you don't believe that you can do it.
You say that you are lost and without direction, that what you want to do isn't feasible. Well, I have a challenge for you: Find a way to both travel AND work. For example, I can take my laptop with me and continue to work anywhere I can find an internet connection.
A friend of mine travels to awesome spots all over the world, and takes pictures that he sells on his website, in galleries, and also to magazines. He gets to fulfill his love of travel AND get paid.
Travel agents have to go to various places to check them out before they can recommend them to clients. People work on airplanes and cruise ships and trains. There are just so many jobs you could have that would allow you to travel, but first you need to believe that you can make this YOUR reality.
While you watch The Secret, allow yourself to dream. Then if you ask the Universe to help you, I know you'll find a way that makes you happy.
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Astrea:
Since your husband doesn't make enough money for you to spend all your time traveling and exploring, it would be a good idea for you to get a job that will give you the money you want in order to do that. (If only all husbands were able to instantly fulfill our every desire!)
Unfortunately, your man is right! To do what you talk about doing is very expensive, and if you're not independently wealthy, well, Honey, you'll have to work for your fun money. Anyway, nothing is more rewarding than being able to support your own dreams, hobbies and activities.
Wanting to do exactly as you please without any strings or ties comes from the Gemini Ascendant in your astrological chart. That Rising Sign causes quite a few people to quickly tire of MANY things, not just their jobs. It's hard to focus your Pisces concentration with that Gemini Rising influence!
Your Pisces Sun longs for stability, while your Gemini Ascendant just wants to have lots of fun. This inner struggle is probably what has kept you from finding something that can hold your interest long enough for it to be an actual career.
Since your Pisces Sun also longs to help others, perhaps your Gemini creativity can steer you into teaching, coaching, or something like art therapy. This would give your creative side a chance to bloom, while your restless side would get to do new things all the time.
Teaching would also give you lots of time for travel once you build up your bankroll a little. School holidays are great times to take off, and most travel agencies offer discounts to teachers who have those times free.
If you feel you don't have the patience or dedication for teaching, a career in public relations or artist representation would also give you the opportunity to travel a lot. Of course, you could always go to school and become a travel agent, which is a job that pays well and includes lots of free trips. This seems like a natural choice for you.
The reason you've never been able to find your niche in the metaphysical world is because you don't like it enough to dedicate the time it would take for you to prosper in a field like that. It's just not your THING.
That's perfectly fine! Not everyone is suited to be a hypnotherapist or acupuncturist. That sort of work can be a real drain on your energy because it's all about OTHER people's needs and desires, not your own. It's great that you learned those skills, but I think if you really wanted to do something where people lean on you all the time, you would be doing that by now.
At some point, everyone wishes that they could find the perfect
job. I wish finding it was as easy as WANTING to find it! If you look deeper into your true nature, I'm sure something will jump out at you.
Astrea:
Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.
Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!
While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!
I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!
As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.
I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.
You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!
Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.
A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.
You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.