I am currently married but I have had a certain guy on my mind for almost a year now. He is also married. We haven't spoken in 14 years, but recently we started emailing. I have had ringing in my ears and chest pain throughout the past year, ever since we reconnected. (My doctor cleared me of any health problems.) I feel such a strong pull towards him; I feel that my life is shifting towards him. We were attracted to each other in college but never dated. I feel that our time is coming when we are supposed to be together. Am I crazy that my feelings are this strong with someone I haven't seen or talked to in 14 years? Thank you!
Traci
Astrea:
No, you're not crazy. Many people experience what you're going through when they are bored with their spouses. Instead of meeting a stranger online or via a dating service, they often turn to someone they knew before they were married.
If the other person is also married, it's safer that way for the couple involved. It might amaze you to discover how many people rekindle romances after college or high school reunions only to discover that the attraction was only in their minds because they were unhappy or dissatisfied with their current partners and situations.
Since you knew this guy in college, you already know a good bit about him. You don't have to worry that he'll do anything crazy, like show up on your doorstep and ask you to run away with him.
Since he's also married, it may be that he's also bored and feels safe talking to you. It's exciting and forbidden, and you can scare yourselves with the possibility that you could be together someday. It's natural for friends who are attracted to each other to take their relationship to some kind of romantic level whether in reality or fantasy.
Also, since both of you are already in what seem to be committed relationships (at least on the surface), there won't be a whole lot of pressure to come through on any promises.
Try not to get your heart broken. Men and women are very different when it comes to things like this. I've done countless readings for women who say they feel a deep connection with a fellow who is only doing something for fun. Remember that you have not known this man on any kind of intimate level, and that he could just be playing around and unaware of how much you're investing in the relationship. Disaster lurks here!
There is also the problem of getting caught. Do you really feel your husband would be totally forgiving if he read those emails? Leos are notoriously careless when it comes to covering up. Beware of hurting someone who used to be the most important person on Earth to you.
If you value your relationship with your own husband, I urge you to be very careful about what you're risking. Perhaps the two of you could go to a counselor to try to rekindle your feelings for each other, or maybe it's time to get a divorce and move on. Either way, you owe it to yourselves to explore that possibility with someone who can help.
Don't throw away what you have for what you feel is destiny. It's not - it's wishful thinking. I don't have to tell you that you get carried away at times, Leo. Don't paint yourself into a corner from which you can't escape.
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Susyn:
What you're experiencing now - as you did in college - is a powerful past life karmic connection with David. However, you have to be very careful about trying to determine what this connection is, along with its spiritual importance and higher purpose in your life.
If you are soul mates destined to be together in this lifetime, there is no way of stopping it or speeding it up. Universal timing is an interesting thing, as its main purpose is to protect us from experiencing things before we are ready.
The time period between your connection in college and your reconnection now has no doubt been filled with many lessons, karmic experiences and personal growth. This will ensure the best possible outcome for any given situation whether a life partnership with him is in your future or not.
The physical pains you've been experiencing are also an aspect of your past life together. They may stem from painful experiences you had in that past life, or mirror pains that you experienced at that time when these symptoms represented something threatening your health.
One way to gain some clarity about this relationship is to go within and begin examining your feelings. If you are unhappy in your life or marriage, this could be a wonderful distraction. This is an indicator that you have work of your own left to do, so you must aim for greater spiritual growth and wholeness before taking any actions or moving on any feelings that will most certainly affect the other people in your life and his.
I had a similar experience when I encountered a high school sweetheart many years later. The connection and chemistry were so intense and overwhelming that I also wondered if we were destined to reunite.
However, by standing still, paying attention and not moving in any direction beyond email, I soon realized that this was a gift for me, and was designed to bring out hidden aspects of myself that had gotten lost or buried over the years. It reconnected me with my youthful spirit while alerting me to the fact that we really had no future together.
It may take more time to determine where things might lead with David, so I encourage you to focus on the gifts and affirmations he is bringing into your life now without pondering the future or letting hopes and expectations rule your thoughts or decisions.
Ask Spirit to increase this connection if that is what is best for you, or to diminish the connection if it is not meant to go further. In that way, you'll either learn some very important things about yourself, or the Universe will continue to open the door wider for this relationship.
Astrea:
Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.
Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!
While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!
I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!
As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.
I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.
You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!
Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.
A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.
You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.