I dated a guy years ago, and though I am very happy with my life and have moved on, often I still feel what he is going through emotionally or I have dreams about his life. It's been more than a decade since we parted, so I'm amazed at the power of our connection. It's so strong that I have visions about his life. Do we always remain connected to those we have loved deeply even when we're no longer with them?
Astrea:
Many people with psychic abilities or budding psychic sensitivities experience love the way you feel it for your friend. They can feel how their connection is never broken. Love like yours is always there.
Soul mate reunions and departures are like The Never Ending Story because love has no ending. Love is perpetual and constant. Love is the one thing that withstands all elements, distance, time and dimensions. Your connection is unusual because you're more aware of it than other people may be. What you're sensing is very real and beautiful; don't feel guilty for feeling love!
We have many Soul Mates from whom to choose in each incarnation, so we are regularly coming together with them and breaking apart. If we are returning with a Like Soul or a member of our Ka-Tet (Karmic Family), there are many variables that may affect the way things go.
People evolve in different directions and at different paces, and the evolution of souls is much the same. It's hard to grasp the concept of infinity or even of Infinite Power. Souls don't always go into lessons and experiences at the same times or even during the same centuries. Each goes at his or her own pace. Also, often we don't synchronize with every Soul Mate we encounter on our personal journeys.
People also come into our lives on the Random, and that creates new outcomes and possibilities. Meetings and partings are a big part of being here on Earth. Loving this person doesn't mean you don't deeply love your own husband. I agree that these intense connections can be distracting and bittersweet, but if you have one, you're wise to maintain it so that you'll be ready for the next time you come together in love.
In future incarnations, perhaps the two of you will choose to be linked spiritually and romantically in a way that it will last your entire lifetime. Knowing that the love you feel for one another is unbroken will sustain you until you can physically be together again; what you're sensing is a strong indication that you will indeed come together again in love.
The old saying, As long as two people are alive, anything is possible
has expanded. Now we say, As long as there is love, there is hope.
Love affects all of us differently, but it is the purest and most powerful emotion of all. Trust that what you're sensing is very real, and take it as a reminder that true love never dies.
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Susyn:
We always remain connected to those we have loved deeply but are no longer with physically, whether our connection with them involved romance, friendship or a family tie. These feelings can emerge with people we have shared important past lives with as well.
When we feel close to someone whether they are physically near us or not, our empathic powers sense what the other person is going through emotionally and sometimes even physically. If these people were a powerful presence in our lives, there is a good chance we will cross paths with them again at some point in time.
Another aspect to consider is that because this man was once a powerful influence in your life, you will always feel connected to him because he reflects certain aspects of your personality that developed when you were together. Relationships can open up traits within us that we may keep hidden or buried when there is no one in our life to share them with.
A few years ago, I crossed paths with my childhood sweetheart. Though it has been 30 years since we had seen each other, he was someone I carried in my thoughts and sometimes in my dreams throughout the years. Our meeting reflected the strong connection between us that still seemed to be there; it was an amazing experience.
We developed a friendship, but over time I came to realize that one of the strongest attractions I felt was based on the fact that he represented a certain time frame in my life. The relationship had occurred before some of the heavy realities of life had touched either of us, before we embarked on the difficult lessons of growing up. Seeing each other took us back to a time when life was simple and carefree. This then became an opportunity for me to reclaim some of that innocent hope and spirit I carried back then.
You may want to meditate on who you were during the time the two of you were involved. In this way, you could discover that part of your attraction to him is calling you back to those earlier days and the person you were back then.
Your visions of him and the empathy you appear to feel for his emotions clearly speak to your own psychic capabilities. Trust your intuition when these thoughts and feelings come up. At some point, you may feel drawn to seek him out to reconnect with him, or you may pick up the phone or open an email to discover he has been experiencing similar thoughts and feelings about you.
Astrea:
Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.
Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!
While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!
I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!
As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.
I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.
You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!
Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.
A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.
You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.