For a few years now, small children under five will seem to stare at the top of my head and smile. I don't know what they're looking at but they seem to be mesmerized. I love kids and they seem to trust me even when I'm a stranger to them. I feel that what attracts them may be some sort of light. Some have said it's my angel, inner child or my aura. I am in the medical field, and some very ill patients of mine seem to receive comfort from whatever this is. At the other end of the spectrum, some have said it was evil and that I should go receive communion from a priest. I reject that idea because I think if it were evil, I would sense that. Nevertheless, that idea does have me a little concerned. Thanks in advance for your time!
Michele
Astrea:
You are probably an Angelic Being of some kind. Most Angelic Beings have light around them or around a certain part of their bodies. Light shining like a halo is simply the manifestation of the positive energy you are radiating.
This halo is probably always there, but it may shift with your mood and only be visible to some people. Children would be the prime viewers of this since they haven't built up walls against their psychic abilities yet. Not only that, but more and more Indigo and Crystal children are emerging into speech now, so they are able to communicate what they see. To them, seeing a halo or band of light is a normal, everyday thing, while to fearful or envious adults, it could be interpreted as evil. Ignorance is agony sometimes, isn't it?
This halo is energy you're giving over to others in Love and in Healing Light. Some people might say you have the gift of laying on hands
even though your hands are just one physical conduit for the energy channeling through you.
Touch is only one way that you can help others. The patients you see as adults are quite ill at the time, and in illness, we tend to stop blocking psychic perceptions because our ego's defenses go down.
The people who say this is evil are misinformed and trying to scare you for some reason. They fear what they don't understand. Often because they can't see what is there, they feel insecure, and they may try to create confusion for people who can. If what you had was evil, no one would be taking comfort from it, and children certainly would not be so trusting of you.
While Beings like you are few and far between, they are nevertheless all around us. The Beings of Light I encounter seem to be finding easier ways to be recognized. Their need to communicate the light of love is motivating them to be inventive. More of you are coming out by allowing your light to be visually seen in addition to being psychically sensed. Your halo is pretty; there is no reason to fear showing it off.
For your communion, try going deeply into nature. Find a place with running water or go to the beach. Be quiet. Renew yourself from the wind and water, the earth and the sun. Your body is your temple and your temple is your church. Think of new ways and ideas to share your gift of light. Renew yourself with these ideas.
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Susyn:
The light that surrounds your head is definitely an aura and not something evil. When faced with a phenomenon they know little to nothing about, some people will naturally fear it. This has been going on for centuries. In fact, even when the first camera was invented, most people were frightened of it and erroneously believed that it could steal one's soul.
Fortunately, our generation is in the midst of a spiritual evolution. As we are beginning to understand the capabilities we possess as spirits encased in human bodies, we can cast aside these unfounded fears to see the truth. Your patients receive comfort from you because you are emanating a gentle, enlightened aura. If this were not the case, you would find your patients becoming upset or feeling agitated when they are near you.
Young children are more capable of psychic perception and are more open to metaphysical experiences than adults. They feel free to talk or play with spirits and discuss memories of their past lives. Children's perceptions are not limited by practical thinking or rigid ideas about what is and is not possible.
When young children are clearly drawn to some people while fearing others, it's because they are listening to their instincts and intuition, which operate unhindered when we're young. It is only when we get older and have been admonished or encouraged to ignore our inner voice and adopt someone else's opinions that we start to lose our ability to see the auric lights that surround each and every one of us.
When people work in the medical field and they are surrounded by patients who are very ill, their auras tend to be amplified simply by virtue of the spiritual aspects of the work they are doing. Though an illness might be centered in the physical, the most healing aspect of your work is the spiritual and emotional care you give to your patients.
I am certain you have witnessed amazing miracles in your work, which is another testament to how your healing and spiritual aura soothes and delights everyone you meet. When you bring hope and joy to others just via your presence, you are activating the light and aura within them, which facilitates healing.
Instead of worrying about this phenomenon, embrace it! Then it will grow stronger, which will make the work you do even more effective and rewarding.
Astrea:
Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.
Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!
While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!
I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!
As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.
I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.
You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!
Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.
A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.
You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.