I'm trying to find out why I'm divinely protected. I'll tell you why I ask. First, I should never have been born. My mom had had her tubes tied and burned, but I was conceived anyway. I almost killed her, so I was taken out at 24 weeks and wasn't expected to live. (I was due 2/1/77 but was born on 11/9/76.) I don't have enough space to tell you everything, but I should have died on at least five different occasions. When I was born, the doctors said I'd be dead within a few hours. This turned into days and weeks, etc. Then they said I would be disabled and need help for everything. I turned out to be one of the smartest, fastest, strongest kids in school. I was hit by a car when I was six. My bike was completely crushed but there was nothing wrong with me. When I was 15, I got shot on a hunting trip but I'm still here. I then went into the army where I was shot again. I'm still okay. I was blown up by an IED (improved explosive device) when it hit a fuel truck I was on. Everyone died but me. It broke my neck and many other things, but you would never know it now, for I walk and talk just fine. When something bad could happen to me, something good always comes of it instead. I was retired from the army but they still pay me and I get to spend time with my kid. I went back to work again and had my shoulder torn out while working on a big machine, so now I never have to work and they pay me too. Now I can go back to school and get a new degree and not worry about money because they pay for school and I still get to spend time with my kid. There are many other things also happening. I'm starting to have visions of things that later come true. I can also find lost items that no one else can find. It's like I see them in my head and go right to where they are. I sometimes know if a person is going to die. (I don't like that.) Why am I like this? I feel like I'm here for some big reason but don't what it is. Do you?
James
Astrea:
Upon the first read, your question sounded like something from an Angelic Spirit. This is someone who has never been to this Earth Plane before, someone who would have agreed to all the suffering you've experienced and survived. Angelic Spirits come to Earth in order to save others, and you have certainly accomplished a lot of that in your life.
However, I don't think that's what is going on here. I know you seem to have amazingly good fortune now, but your journey has been tough in some of your past incarnations. Some people (those who are Old, Old, Old Souls) experience tremendous joy and great sorrow in their lives - so much joy and sorrow that younger souls and less courageous individuals just couldn't handle it.
I would love to tell you that I know the exact reasons for all you've experienced and survived in your life. Unfortunately, no human being can tell you exactly why you suffer or why you prosper because that's for you and your Guides to figure out together.
Fortunately, you've been protected and nurtured by them so that you will live long enough and have enough prosperity in your life to discover that reason. Of course, the most obvious answer is that you're here for your child. If that's not enough reason to stick around, I don't know what is!
In your search for answers, you might begin with the fact that you've been a soldier, warrior, and commander of armies many times in your past lives. The experiences you have had in this life strongly support this as being true.
Of course, you've probably had some healing professions in your past lives too, because you seem to be able to heal not only your body but your Spirit. This comes from experience. One-Timers and New people can't do that sort of thing.
Your survival suggests that most of the things you've been through, you've experienced before, though I doubt you had such fortunate outcomes in the past. You've paid your dues and should enjoy more good times than crazy times now.
Unless you are an Angelic Spirit (which is entirely possible), I'd say you have an Old Soul and a Survivor's Spirit. The things you talk about are both awful and wonderful at the same time. Are you lucky or unlucky? Adversity seems to be a major part of your life, but good fortune seems to always come your way.
An unflinching look at your Past Lives and the Karma you bring to this life would illuminate a good deal of why this keeps happening to you. Try to find a qualified past life regression therapist so you can discover who and where you were before, and how that all ties in with your wild adventures in this life.
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Susyn:
It certainly sounds like you lead a charmed life. As you state in your letter, there must be a very special reason for your existence here on Earth. The Universe definitely wants you here despite all the life-threatening karmic events that have come your way.
Often when we experience these types of close calls with death, they evoke a sense that there is a higher order at work, and with those events, we grow stronger in our psychic gifts.
Most people discover their intuitive powers through two channels, either through emotional or physical trauma. While the emotional psychic transformation process is slow and can take years to develop, physical trauma often awakens us practically overnight. Since this was the case for you, it's no wonder you are now realizing your ability to foretell the future and see things no one else can.
You may have come into this life with a multitude of spirit guides who have been diligent in protecting you. It's also likely that the events you lived through were a part of past life karma you had to clear. Either way, now that your psychic abilities have shown themselves, you shouldn't have to go through any more physical trauma.
Though you feel uneasy about these gifts, you'll get used to them. Learning to maintain your sense of inner balance and determining how best to use your powers is part of the transformational process you're now in. You came into this life with a special purpose, and now you're discovering what it is and how to best fulfill it.
One of the most important ways you'll use this gift is in helping others who've had similar experiences. Because you have the freedom to devote your time to whatever calls your name, thanks to the financial support you've gathered through these incidents, you can devote more time to connecting with people who are on the same spiritual path. Joining a group of spiritually focused people or finding a mentor to guide you in understanding your experiences will help you determine how to make the most of your powers.
You have been able to see the gifts that have come from the physical threats to your life. The more you investigate your abilities, the more you'll be able to appreciate them and use them to their fullest potential.
You will continue to see more powers emerging. As a Scorpio, your ability to walk that fine line between life and death will become instrumental in helping others understand and appreciate their own growth potential.
Be sure to learn more about your spirit guides, and remember to thank them for the remarkable job they've done protecting your life!
Astrea:
Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.
Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!
While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!
I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!
As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.
I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.
You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!
Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.
A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.
You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.