I have a question about my path with abuse. I grew up knowing about the divinity available, but I was paralyzed by fear and pain because of the sexual abuse I experienced. As this is sadly a common experience among women, I decided to volunteer for a related organization. What is it about women who experience this trauma as opposed to those who do not? I somehow feel I chose this challenge to overcome in order to redeem deep pieces of power I have lost - possibly in past lives. What do you believe about sexual abuse in connection with spiritual growth? Do you think it would be wise to do soul retrieval through regression to past lives where I may have also been abused? Thank you! I will be grateful to hear whatever you receive on this. God Bless!
- Katherine
Dreamchaser:
Katherine, I am sorry that you had to withstand the trauma you did when you were young. It did, however, turn you into who you are today, so it was a definite soul choice of yours before you came to this planet.
Before we come here, we choose our path, our lessons, our families, our names and every other detail and aspect of our human lives. Everything that happens to us is part of a divine plan for our soul so that we can learn what we need to learn to finally ascend. So yes, Katherine, you chose the sexual abuse you suffered as part of your life lesson. You are learning, evolving and moving forward. We are not meant to go BACKWARDS.
We leave a piece of us in each life I think, but on the other hand, we also bring pieces of wisdom, power and knowledge into following lives. For example, when we take a vacation, we leave a piece of ourselves there in that place, but we also come back full up with THAT place and memories that will last forever. We do not necessarily need or want to go back and retrieve pieces of our soul. Whatever parts of our soul we have with us are the parts that we need. If your soul is missing something, fill it up with meditation, prayer and LOVE (not just the romantic kind).
Trauma/abuse, be it sexual, physical, mental, emotional or any other kind, happens to each and every human being on this planet. Not ONE person can leave this life without feeling that some person or thing on this planet victimized them in some way. We have two choices. We can choose to allow things to take us down and destroy us, or we can choose to use what happens to us for good somehow. In ANY situation, we can choose love or hate, positive or negative, fear or faith, etc. I would hope that we choose to embrace our lessons and learn from them and use them to help others, like you are doing NOW with this organization.
I cannot tell you whether "Soul Retrieval" or "past life regression" should or should not be used. They are much like plastic surgery, in my opinion. If you think it will help you, then feel free to try it. Just be very careful regarding who is performing the procedure. A friend of mine went for a "Soul Retrieval" recently and she said she started to worry when the woman started humming the theme song to "Lassie" as her "sacred spiritual song for ushering in spirits." Make sure you ask the person for references and then check them. Never, EVER, let just anyone work on your soul. That is HIGHLY dangerous. A good rule of thumb would be, "when in doubt, opt out."
I wish you wholeness.
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Astrea:
The question you really seem to be asking is much broader than what has happened to you in your own life.
Why is there suffering in the World? EVERYONE SUFFERS, and we all measure our own happiness against our suffering. There is evil and suffering in the World because that is the NATURE of life on EARTH. I do not believe there can be any Great Universal Intent to make us suffer from sexual abuse or anything else. Evil occurs along with Good in Nature. We have to accept what is.
Your Capricorn birthday is part of the reason you have been forced to accept this abuse. I find that, for whatever reason, Earth Signs experience more of that kind of trauma than other signs, and of the three Earth Signs, Capricorn seems to be the most vulnerable to that sort of experience. I think it's wonderful that you can rationalize that you CHOSE these experiences, but I don't believe that you really did. I know that Capricorn women are stronger than lots of other people, and perhaps that's why you can SURVIVE something like this so well. Your personality, however, does NOT DRAW that to you! You never invited the sexual abuse.
The person or people who did these things to you took advantage of your generous nature and terrorized you so that you wouldn't tell. Perhaps that was a random event in your life, which is every bit as possible as a choice you might make before you came to this incarnation for that to happen to you. Perhaps that person had an EVIL SOUL, and did this for some sick kick. I do NOT think you were a willing participant before, after, or in ANY DIMENSION. I find it hard to believe that anyone, man or woman, would choose that. The BEST thing about that experience is that it is NOT HAPPENING NOW, and you have found a way to heal from it and to help others.
There is NO GOOD REASON in this or a past life for that to happen to any person. Abuse can't be explained away with "Karma." SOME THINGS JUST HAPPEN TO PEOPLE. Some people make poor choices, but no one chooses to suffer on purpose. Our Benign Universe would never dictate some of the things that we have to put up with.
ALL people experience the highest highs and the lowest lows in life. Men have abuse issues too. Women who don't experience the trauma of sexual abuse experience trauma in different ways. In everyone's life, no matter how perfect it might look from the outside, there are traumatic experiences, along with the good ones we create for ourselves. Our job as HUMAN BEINGS is to learn how to cope and deal with what we encounter in Life.
Astrea:
Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.
Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!
While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!
I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!
As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.
I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.
You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!
Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.
A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.
You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.