Double Vision: The Lady No One Wants

Venus Cycles

I read Kajama's advice columns every week, and I'm often struck by the types of questions people pose. A lot of people have relationship problems. While this may sound odd, I would simply LOVE to have a relationship problem, because it would mean I had relationships! Sometimes I have to look in the mirror or pinch myself to remind myself that I exist, because I feel so alone and ignored. I've even been to therapy and been the only one without a "real" problem. Most other people had relationship problems, whereas I just wanted a relationship of any kind just to be able to interact with another human being! Even one close friend would do. Am I inherently bad? It sure feels like I am not good enough to be in this world.

- the lady no one wants


Quantum physics offers scientific proof that we create our realities via what we think. The only name attached to your question was "the lady no one wants." The letters were not even capitalized!

Do you see how statements like that help to create the reality you live in? You have convinced yourself that no one wants you and that you are going to be alone, thus this is the reality that you are creating every day.

In What the Bleep do We Know (a film that everyone should rush out and buy or rent if you haven't seen it already), Dr. Joe Dispenza said, "I wake up in the morning and I consciously create my day the way I want it to happen. Now sometimes because my mind is examining all the things that I need to get done, it takes me a little bit to settle down and get to the point of where I'm actually intentionally creating my day. But here's the thing: When I create my day and out of nowhere little things happen that are so unexplainable, I know that they are the process or the result of my creation. And the more I do that, the more I build a neural net in my brain that I accept that that's possible. (This) gives me the power and the incentive to do it the next day.

"So if we're consciously designing our destiny, and if we're consciously from a spiritual standpoint throwing in with the idea that our thoughts can affect our reality or affect our life - because reality equals life - then I have this little pact that I have when I create my day.

"I say, 'I'm taking this time to create my day and I'm infecting the quantum field. Now if (it) is a fact the observer's watching me the whole time that I'm doing this and there is a spiritual aspect to myself, then show me a sign today that you paid attention to any one of these things that I created, and bring them in a way that I won't expect, so I'm as surprised at my ability to be able to experience these things. And make it so that I have no doubt that it's come from you,' and so I live my life, in a sense, all day long thinking about being a genius or thinking about being the glory and the power of God or thinking about being unconditional love."

Take a really close look at how you react and interact with people who cross your path. Do you go out and actively seek this love you are asking for? Are you taking the risks that are necessary to find love? The truth is that whatever we have going on outside ourselves is a direct reflection of what we think we deserve on the inside.

I wish you new creations.



I'm always stumped when people ask why they don't have love in their lives. You're not bad, you're not ugly, and I'm sure you don't smell awful. I feel that you are, however, very quiet and shy, and that you were badly hurt or disappointed as a child. Thus you are so terrified of being hurt that you won't allow other people access to your emotional world.

You're not the only person who feels this way in the crazy world we live in. There are LOTS of people who are every bit as lonely as you feel right now! Other people have their own problems, so they're not going to just fall into your lap. The Universe can HELP us to a goal, but it won't fulfill our goals for us.

No one is going to try to draw you out. Most people are too self-involved to struggle to get past your self-protective barriers. Don't depend on anyone but yourself to manifest the happiness you desire.

If you want relationships, you have to improve your relationship with YOURSELF first. You're very hard on that lady in the mirror! You don't really think she deserves to have anyone in her life. If you don't feel you are worthy of love, how are you ever going to feel that what you have to offer others is valuable? Since you seem to have had this attitude for many years, nothing is going to happen overnight, but as you improve your relationship with yourself, you'll begin to develop relationships with others.

You have to be able to give love to receive love, and you're hiding from everyone. It sounds like the therapy you tried was group therapy, and you probably would benefit more from personal counseling. Once you determine the deeper reasons you don't have relationships, you can get past it and find all kinds of people who will love to spend time with you. It probably won't take you long, since you already know you don't like what's happening now. When people want change, change happens, and you sound like you're ready for that.

I honestly believe in my heart that when a person gives love unselfishly, real love comes back to that person. Practice gratitude in place of self-pity and see what happens. Every time you feel like you're unloved or unwanted, extend a hand to someone. Volunteer to read to the blind or serve in a soup kitchen. More than any therapy, THAT will open your heart to the truth that you really do have a lot to give and to be thankful for. The feelings you'll get from the good deeds you do will radiate from your aura and draw wonderful relationships of all kinds into your experience.


Many times in life we hear, "You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT." Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown's book was all it took to get you there.

Even though you hadn't read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!

While I don't usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity - you gotta love it!

I like your description of "getting caught." That's exactly what it feels like, isn't it? One minute you're free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!

As a little kid, I loved that "feeling of return." With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.

I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family's interest in "psychic stuff" will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.

You'll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she'll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn't nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it's STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!

Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.

A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don't get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you're doing here on Earth.

You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.